𝔥𝔢𝔯 {𝔟𝔦𝔩𝔩𝔦𝔢 𝔢𝔦𝔩𝔦𝔰𝔥}

three | over

billie's pov

"its fine, ive been wanting a break anyways, she always wants to fuck, when all I wanna do is hang out, its like she's using me for sex- oh shit, shes using me for sex,"

-

3 months later

so yeah, I came to the conclusion that jasper has been using me, which hurts alot, I was like, in love with that girl, and she dose that, I dont know if its true, but it sure seems like it, and when id try to talk to her about it, she'd change the subject.

I decided to text her, and talk about it.

Billie:
jasper:

hey jasper

hi billllll whats
up?

nothing much, I
just need to talk
to you about something

k. whats up

the other day, after
you left,
me and jade were
talking about
things, and
we were
talking about
our break.

mhm?

well, I said
something, and
I came to
the realization that
I never thought I
would have.

what?

i dont think this is
gonna work jasper,
im sorry
I love you alot, but
you never wanna
hang out,
its always about
sex, 'babe im
horny',
'baby, I miss your
touch',
all I wanna do is
be able to
hang out with
you for one
night, and
talk about shit
that goes on in
our lifes, but you
dont give two
fucks, so why
should I try,
when you aren't
putting any
effort at
all into our
relationship,
so im done with
ur dumbass,
and ur selfishness,
fuck you.

this number has blocked you

I could feel the tears on my cheek, jade was sitting by me the whole time, I felt her hand go up and down my back , "that took a lot of courage bil, im proud of you," she looked into my eyes and pulled me into a tight hug.

I started to cry harder, the thought of losing the love of my life, or so I thought.

it hurts, but im the one who did it, so its not like its jaspers fault, but it kind of is.

"hey, hey, its okay, breathe," jade wrapped both of her hands around me and rubbed my back, "im sorry, its stupid, I just never thought i'd lose her, even though I was the one who broke up with her, I was... inlove with her," I said truthfully as I backed away from the hug, "inlove?... strong word choice... um, ive never been inlove so don't have a say on that, but.. I do know how it feels to lose someone," jade seemed sort of..... disappointed?

"yeah. well, I think im gonna get ready for bed, love you," jade grabbed my face and kissed my forehead, "love you too, sleep well," she walked out my room

-

timespeed

I got out the shower and went in the room jade was in, her bed, (she finally got her stuff from her moms house) I realized that she was already asleep, so I got up and walked to the door until I heard a raspy, 'wait', I turned back to see jade looking at me.

she waved her hand, telling me to sit by her, I walked back to the bed and sat down, she sat up and rubbed her eyes to wake her up more.

"I wanna talk to you about something," she looked down in her lap and played with the blanket, "okay, what about," I looked her hands and back at her face.

"I know you and jasper broke up, and i dont want you to think I want something to happen right away, because I understand how it is, and its gonna be hard to get through, it may take months, at the least, a few years at the most-,"

"what are you trying to tell me, because it seems like ur stalling," I told her with a grin on my face, "sorry, lemme get to the point, I really like you, like a lot, some would say in love, but we don't talk about that," she said as she tucked her hair behind her ear with the last bit of her sentence and I laughed.

"in love? I thought you said you had never been in love," I smiled at her, "welp it was a lie," she laughed

"you remember that one day you woke up from me and jasper arguing? well we were arguing about- you know," i told her without making eye contact, she let out a quiet 'oh' and looked down

I put my hand on her cheek and looked at her, "can i?," I looked at her lips, 'hm?' she quietly said, "kiss?" she laughed and nodded, I got closer and kissed her lips softly, but quickly backed up, then went back in for another, it was a very passionate kiss, jade pulled away and looked at me with a nervous look.

"whats wrong," I looked back at her in confusion, "nothing, but im kinda hungry, wanna go get something to eat?," she asked, but we just got ready to go to sleep," I complained, "its a pajamas date, c'mon," she got up and dragged me to the living room, we put our shoes and jackets on, i grabbed my keys and we went.

-

an hour later

we still haven't found a place to eat at, I found this vegan place but its too far away, "can we just go to taco bell," I complained, she agreed.

-

20 mins or so

we got home and put the food on the table, we sat down and began eating, "you remember that one morning when you woke up to me and jasper arguing?," I brought up randomly, jade respond with a 'mhm' "the reason we were arguing is because I tried to talk to her abt how I felt, with the using me for sex thing, but at the time I didn't realize she was using me," I continued eating, "im sorry billie, ik its been hard for you, and if you ever need time alone, tell me, and i can go stay w my sister,"

jade sounded really genuine, which is new to me bc jasper, she wasn't the most honest person. "thank you, but i don't think I want you going any time soon," i laughed and continued eating again, "what dose that mean," jade said with a nervous laugh.

"nothing," I finished my burrito and threw away the food trash, "when ur done, come in my room, I need to talk to you,"

jade's pov

'i need to talk to you' I started to get nervous, my hands started to get sweaty, and I started to pick at my nails, "okay," she walked to her room, I wrapped up my food and followed Billie to her room, we sat on the bed by each.

"so you know how its been three months since the whole jasper thing," billie asked nervously, "yeah?" I said, confused on why she brought it up, "well, ive been really happy that you're here, you have brought me so so so much joy and i cant thank you enough,"

what if she asks me to move out?

"ive been thing a lot lately and I thinks its the right thing to do," she sighs heavily...

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(a/n: LMAO cliffhanger, I will try to update tmr/today (bc its 3am) if Im not busy. hehehhehe