i stare at myself in the mirror.
pick.
pick.
picking at my skin.
hoping nobody hears my sobs.
tears fall.
fall.
fall down my face.
i notice the weight ive lost.
purge.
purge.
purging until perfection.
i look at my scars.
cut.
cut.
cutting away at my features.
i try and smile.
force.
force.
forcing it to look real.
i realize, im not perfect.
try.
try.
trying until im the perfect one.
i think throughout the night.
over.
over.
over.
and over again.
will i ever be good enough in my own eyes?
doubt it.
