Yes I am a girl, and yes I am the Alpha here..

When the words you want are out of reach but they've never been so loud

Yo! this is me trying to keep to my word and update as soon as possible! I was away from this story for so long that I am going to try and bust a few chapters out over the next couple days to push this story along as much possible. I love you and thank you for reading!

DarkSeelie

(Julianna's POV)

As I was running I could still feel my tears still streaming down my wolfs fur. The pain was still ever present and right now I was just letting her go where ever made her feel a little better. When suddenly, she stopped. I looked around and couldn't see anything but from what I could feel we had something pulling us to the boarder. I wondered what it was and planned on staying in this spot until I could get some kind of idea as to why I was feeling this way. However I suppose my wolf decided she wanted to continue. I felt my feet moving forward even though I was willing them to halt I needed to reign myself in. 

As I approached the woods I felt my heart start to pump faster and faster. My feet felt light and there was a warm feeling washing over me for the first time in months. I felt truly happy. Delighted even. However, I couldn't tell you why I felt that way. I was almost at the tree line when I ran into something hard, I flew backwards and immediately jumped back to my feet with a snarl. I glared forward only to feel my heart jump into my throat and feel like it had popped with happiness, but just as quickly as it came, it went. My heart sank I felt angry and hurt, disappointed and sad all at once because the thing I was glaring at was a very familiar looking wolf. One I was hoping to never see again. 

Lusius.

I felt my eye well once more with hot tears and I turned to run. I ran as quickly as I could forcing myself fast and faster to my home where I could lock myself in my room and pray that I was only seeing things, that somehow this was all just a bad dream and I would wake up any minute now and the person who ripped my heart from my chest would never have come back, hell maybe never would have existed in the first place. I felt pain tearing through me, my wolf howled in confusion. I could feel her in just as much pain as I was and just as angry.

The foot steps behind me were growing fainter by the second. When I finally reached my front door I felt the aftermath of pushing myself to go so fast. I could barely stand so I let a loud howl rip from my throat and I felt the door I was using to hold myself up start to open I backed up enough so I wouldn't collapse into the house when the door opened and crawled inside. James was the one to open the door.

"Rachel!"  and my mothers rushing footsteps were the last things I heard before everything went black.

By the time I came to I was in my p,j's on my bed back in my human form. I looked around confused not remembering how I got in my room or even how I got dressed. Hell I couldn't even remember how I had gotten home. I couldn't remember that is, until I tried to stand and every muscle in my bods started to scream in protest.

"FUCKING HELL!" I screamed as I felt to the ground in a crumpled pile of pain. 

My door flung open and my step father and mother ran into the room.

"Sweetheart please be careful I don't know what happened last night but you put yourself through a lot. The entire pack said all they saw was the blur of you racing by to the house. Some said they would have thought you had been flying home if they did know any better." My mother rambled. 

James started to pick me up to help me back into my bed when I let out another loud yell in pain and he gently placed me back onto my bed.

"What happened to get you to run home so quickly last night Jules?" He asked concern colouring his voice.