Yes I am a girl, and yes I am the Alpha here..

Poise and rationality. Julie's POV

I woke up my wolf bouncing around in happiness. I felt a feather soft touch brush my cheek and my eyes fluttered open. That's when I saw them; sapphire blue eyes  Starring at me with concern and worry. His dark blond hair was short cut but with longer bangs. His noise was very..English. His lips were full but not to full they were perfect. He was perfect. He had a strong jaw and those eyes. I shook myself a little when I realized. He was concerned. The monster killed my father and now he was concerned about me. Where was all this concern when he was ripping out my father throat. I jumped back in fear. 

"Uncle! Help!" I cried out in fear.

He would never hurt us! He is our mate. His wolf won't let him! My wolf chastised me for fearing our mate.

In case you don't remember. He killed our father! He would still be here if it wasn't for him. I sneered at my wolf. 

She just whimpered in response.

My uncle jumped in between me and my mate when I realized how silly I was being. I am Alpha. I am not a little kid anymore. I stood embarrassed by my childish response. I straightened my outfit and dusted myself off preparing myself for what I had to do. I had to face my mate and my fathers killer. I had to decide whether or not I would reject him and force him to pay for his actions. Or just make him pay. As Alpha I can't reject him I knew that but could I pretend to for a little while and make him wallow in his own self pity and then sentence him to a beating. I could just sentence him to a beating?

"I am Alpha of the Rising Moon pack. I am Julianna Savage." I introduced myself  knowing that as soon I said my name he would know who I was and exactly why stayed as far away from him as the room would allow me. 

I starred at him blankly trying to hide my emotions but I knew my eyes shone with hate and distaste. I started to shake a little at the knees but I hid it well. My nerves on end from my confliction. I didn't know what I was supposed to do. How was I supposed to face my mother with her mates killer as mine. I couldn't do that to her. I couldn't make her face her mate killer. Not if I wanted her to stay alive.

"Please Julianna, please allow me to explain." He begged me  from his knees. He made no effort to stand. He look broken. it was almost as if he heard what I was thinking.

"There is no explaining that need be done." I said my voice colored in hate. "You are the rogue that in cold blood murdered my father so many moons ago. You are the soul who has cause me and mine so much grieving and sorrow for 5 years. What needs explaining? You alone are why I have been in so much pain for so very long." 

Julianna! There is no need to be so heartless to him! Hear him out. What if it was self defense how do you know ? Just listen to him please. My wolf was begging me to give him a chance. I felt pathetic listening to her beg and plead with me.

You're an Alpha God damn it. You better start acting like it or I will reject him. Calm yourself. I snapped at her. I had to be more poise that she was. My insides we burning. I needed to shift and run and maybe kill some big game. Maybe a mountain lion.

"Please." he begged. "You're my-" 

"Mate." I cut him off and snapped the rest at him "I am your mate. I will not pretend not to know. My wolf recognizes you. But I do not. How am I to love someone who has done nothing but hurt me." 

Which was true. he was the cause of my pain for the last 5 years the cause of my mothers pain. My sisters pain. My packs pain. I simply couldn't allow him not to face some kind of punishment. I knew as Alpha I would have to be the one to issue a sentenced beating.

"Please...please please." he begged "I can't lose you to." 

What did he mean he couldn't lose me too? He has lost another? I softened a little hearing the pain as it dominated his voice causing it to barely a whisper. Is I wasn't a wolf I wouldn't have heard it. I turned to my elder and my uncle who had been standing there dumbstruck that I was talking to my mate in this way.

"Uncle, elder. Please leave now."  I asked them to leave. My mate and I needed to speak alone so I could gather what was going on and get a clear sentence out so my pack may have closure. I needed to find a way for all of us to be happy.

"Julie, I don't think it is wise for-"

"Leave now! I command you to get the fuck out!"   I cut him off. How dare he question me right now. I was clearly in turmoil and needed time to do this on my own I may be young but I was still Alphas for fucks sake and people damn well start getting used to it.

They ran out and I watched them leave. I stood face the window before I walked over and closed the curtains. and turned to face him

"Get up"  I growled a command at him

He looked up at me in shock but did as I told  he stood on shaking legs. I half expected him to pass out on my again. With a sigh I walked over to him and helped to balance him as I brought him to the table in the far right corner of the infirmary. We walked passed the beds and windows in the old cabin looking room and I sat him at the sturdy oak table and I sat across from him.

"Alright" I said calming down "Speak do your explaining and I will pass my judgement only after you finish."

"My mother." He began. "She was murdered when I was still just a young pup. I was 12 years old and had no father to speak of. I came home from pack school one day and found my mothers mangled body laying on the living room floor and there was a note next to her body in a pool of blood...." He pulled the old note out of his pocket and handed it to me.

"Kain,
I hope your dead  mate helps you understand not to fuck with what's mine. I left your son alive because he is useful to me. We are coming for you next.
Rising Moon Alpha,
Adein Savage."

I felt my wolf howl inside me. This was my fathers hand writing. How could this be. Would my father do something so awful? Leave a pup motherless when he was still just a pup? I had to speak to my mother. She knew something I didn't know. I also decided Uncle Demitri would help clear this up.

"I was only doing what I thought had to be done. I had to avenge my mother. She was my world. She was taken from me. I swear Julianna if I had known who you were and who he was to you I would never have killed him."

I saw his eye and saw he meant what he said. Something was off though. My father...He wasn't so cruel. I examined the note and found key differences in the hand writing. I had to speak with my mother.

"You will stay with me until we figure this out. My judgement remains as undecided for further examination. I need to keep an eye on you. Let's go. I need to speak with my mother about this.