Yes I am a girl, and yes I am the Alpha here..

But you don't wanna hear a word of how I need you!

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It's been an extremely long time since I updated I won't bore anyone with the details but a lot has happened in my life so I couldn't continue to write several being deaths of people I loved dearly I am hoping to start writing again but here is something in the mean time.
DarkSeelie

Juliannas POV

I fell into the hot bath like a sack of bricks. Never in all my life had I been so happy to just collapse but this water with it's herbs felt amazing and I just couldn't help but start to drift in to blissful blackness. All of the thoughts that I was having had dissipated.  However, once again, just as quickly as the wonderful relief of nothingness had come it all to quickly ended when I was jolted up right by the sound of snarling wolves and one very angry Bella.

"You're lucky the alpha wanted you alive or I'd fucking slaughter you myself. " She snarled.

She and my sisters had found him and taken him down not even 5 minutes into my bath. There goes any chance I had to relax and regain my composer I suppose.

I heard something thumping up the stairs and down the hallway into my room and Bella bark out a surprisingly strong command "Change and then put on these clothes." Then the bath room door slam behind her along with my bedroom door as she stomped back down the hallway from where she came. When he started to approach my door I felt my face drop into a scowl. My eyes bolted open and I could feel them glowing red. I stared at the man before me hate and love coloring my heart together in a kind of perfect disaster. Finally I managed one simple, forceful command.

"Speak." I spit at him feeling bile rise behind the word I quickly and carefully swallowed it back down so he wouldn't see the weakness he instilled into me.

He stared at me mouth a gape like he was trying to speak but no words could make it off of his tongue. Could I blame him? No. I didn't exactly have anything to say to him either. I wanted to leap out of the bath and straight into his arms and never have him let me go but I also wanted to grab one of the many knives I keep hidden and drag it across his throat and right in this moment if I let myself make any kind of movement I am not to sure which want would take over my being. I was more afraid, however, the one where I jumped into his arms would be victorious, so silently and angrily I sat. Waiting. Fuming, wanting some kind of explanation as to how he could leave his mate so quickly after he had just found her. But didn't get one, instead I was greeted with a dumbfounded look and tears spilling over his cheeks. It broke my heart. However not enough to break the resolve I had been building up.

"Fine, you don't want to speak. I'll do all the talking." I finally croaked out. Pain rasping my voice. I felt tears build and start to spill over as I spoke no longer caring if I looked weak. I had been strong for so long. It's finally my turn to be weak.

"You left. After finally finding each other. After finally putting the last piece of our puzzles together, you ripped them apart. After almost marking me after laying together finally feeling both of our wolves at peace for the first time in your life and the for the longest time in mine you dragged a dark cloud over both of us. You broke me and threw the pieces into a place I didn't know existed and now just like that you are back and with nothing to say on top of it. I was finally healing. How. Dare. You."

I finished tears finally flooding, heart break clogging my throat to a point the ending was almost inaudible even to wolf ears. I was ruined I was broken and I was hurt. I don't think anything he has to say could possibly mend all the damage he has put me through.

"I am so sorry Julie. I can't even express how sorry I am. I wouldn't have left with out a good reason though. Please understand that." He whimpered out the ending. Eyes full of tears and cheeks stained by them. He begged. Pleaded for me to understand. But I couldn't, I couldn't think of a reason good enough to leave the person you love and the 'it's not you it's me' thing is so played out and so beyond leaving the one you love in months of pain.

"Do not call me Julie. That privilege was revoked when you rejected me. I spent months in silent heart ache for the good of my pack. Bit back floods of tears when I saw the young of my pack finding their mates and woke in tears when I dreamed of you. My heart feels like it was wrenched out of my chest and all you can say is basically 'It's not you, it's me' You are pathetic. Give me one good reason I shouldn't make an example out of you in front of my whole pack. Give me two good reasons I shouldn't brand you as a rogue and make sure no other pack allows you entry. And give me three good reasons I shouldn't end your life right here and now." I barked at him as ferocious growls slipped through my lips.

He looked at me with bulging blue eyes. I knew he believed the threats that I was making the issue was I knew I couldn't harm a hair on his head. Even after months of pain I still couldn't hurt him. Because in truth? I still loved him more than I could stand. But for now. He didn't need to know that. All he needed to know was I am hurt and seemingly could do anything I needed to. The pain I experienced in this moment was more unbearable than I could imagine.