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Lines - Tommi

POV: You and Tommi are a couple since few years, you love each other a lot but something unexpected could change everything.

You're sitting on the couch with your legs hanging in the void and your empty head swinging, when Tommi sends you a text message.

"I'm coming home in 15 minutes." After sending to your boyfriend your usual "Okay dude" in response, you leave the phone on the coffe table and you keep on looking at the ceiling again.

You are unable of laughing or crying, you just feel the emptiness that comes and swallows everything: In your mind there is no more room for your words, considerations, feelings or fears, there is only so much silence. You wonder how it all happened, but you can't find an answer. You slowly slide on the couch, you can't feel your body in pain anymore.

You love Tommi to death, and you know how much he loves you too, but you also know that even the strongest of loves may not survive certain storms.

You try to get up, it's dinner time and Tommi will be back in a few minutes, but you can't move, the force of gravity keeps you glued to the couch. You close your eyes, hoping to erase everything, but coming back is not possible anymore, and you have to face the consequences of your actions.

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When Tommi comes back home, he finds you focused, trying to prepare a mushrooms risotto.

"Good evening babe" He greets you as he hugs you from behind, and leans a kiss on the naked skin of your neck. His touch makes you jump, but not from the excitement.

"Is everything okay?" he asks you.

"Mm... yeah" you say, having your back turned on him.

Tommi moves into the bedroom and you breathe a sigh of relief, his closeness stirs you. You have to talk with him as soon as possible but you don't know what to say. Should you go straight to the point? or prepare a well-structured speech? You move quit nervous in front of the stove, and this attitude of yours doesn't escape Tommi's careful gaze.

"Are you sure that everything is fine? If cooking was a problem I could have done it too... you know how much I love doing it" he says, while putting his hands on your hips. You don't turn yourself for looking at him, as you always do. You don't want to look into his eyes, it would make it even more difficult than it already is.

"If you keep stirring it, the rice will not cook faster. Better if you let it rest for a few minutes." he laughs, while first, he caresses the back of your hand and then removes the ladle from your fingers. He gently turns you as he presses your body against his and takes your face in his hands.

You give him a lost glance. It's done, he'll figure it out before you can explain.

"I love that lost baby girl glance of yours... you're so sweet honey" he says, before kissing you. But you're not into that kiss: your mind is far away from him, you can't even feel his taste on your lips, you just feel the fear, eating you inside, minute after minute.

You detach from him and have your back turned on him once again.

"I have to come back cooking... sorry" you say, while grabbing the ladle.

"I will sit here, then..." Tommi says, bewildered from your reaction "If you want I can tell you about my day, while we wait for the dinner to be ready..."

"Sure" you say, but you already know that you won't hear a single word.

Tommi starts telling you about the album he's working on with the band, the sounds that compose it, how much he's peaceful right now and how much music makes him happy. You feel a piercing pain in your heart and suddenly you get paralyzed. You can't talk, maybe you can't even breathe anymore, he keeps talking but you can't hear his words anymore. You lay your hand on your chest and listen to the accelerated beats of your heart, that seems ready to burst. You have to talk to him now, but words don't come out, and you feel suffocated.

A slight smell of burning distracts you from your thoughts: the mushrooms are burnt, and the rice is attached to the pot. You start crying with your face in your hands. Tommi reaches you and tries to cheer you up.

"Don't worry honey, these kind of things can happen even to the most talented of the chef, so don't desperate... Now we throw it all away and order a pizza..." he smiles, trying to hug you, but you get away and run to the bathroom. You close the door behind your back and end up sliding on the floor. Tears start to come down, while you keep your head down between your legs.

Few minutes later you hear Tommi's footsteps more near, and his sweet voice, from the other side of the door, that exhorts you to go out. You have to tell it to him now, but since you don't know how to do it, you decide to show it to him.

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You're standing on the door with your eyes down, while he's holding in his hands your pregnancy test. It's positive.

"So... that's why you were so nervous before?"

You nod.

Tommi looks the test without saying anything, and you don't know how to interpret his silence.

" I swear I don't know how it could happen! I've always been careful: I haven't missed a single pill, I always took them at the right time... Last month I thought it was just stress... You don't know how bad I feel about this! I've ruined everything! Now that the band is having the success it deserves, and that you are so happy and satisfied, I ended up ruining everything... I'm so confused and scared now..." you say so quickly that it looks like that you forget to breath while talking. Tommi pulls you to himself and without saying anything, hugs you tight.

"I know we're too young to have a child, but I love you so much and I don't want to give it up. But at the same time I have so many fears: not being a good mother, ruining your life, imposing you something that you don't want... I feel so wrong." you break away from him and start crying again.

Suddenly Tommi leans his lips on yours giving you a long lasting kiss, delicate and sweet, that makes melt all your tense muscles. You close your eyes, and a warmth feeling pervades you totally. His lips taste like home, and you're pretty addicted to it.

"Can I talk now, before that your Bambi's eyes end up stealing all my words away...?" Tommi asks you, while caressing your wet cheeks. You nod.

"First of all, baby you don't have to be afraid, you're not alone. We will face this together, and everything we will decide to do, I will always be by your side and respecting you, cause I love you so much, and I just want to be with you, until I die."

" But... how will you figure it out with the boys? I don't want you to give up on your dreams for me. I would feel guilty!" your eyes are full of tears, and your voice starts to tremble.

"I know that we never talked about kids... but you're the one I always looked for when thinking about the mother of my kids. You're my everything, and having a family with you is the biggest of my desires."

"So... would you be ready?" you ask him, shyly.

"Those two lines on your pregnancy test are the best thing that happened to me in my whole life, after meeting you! Believe me, and please stop crying! I hate seeing you like this!" Tommi says, with a breath taking smile, while he dries you a tear. You finally smile too, sincerily relieved.

"I love when you smile" he says, giving you a forehead kiss "Now that it's all settled, let's order dinner... Good news always make Daddy Lalli hungry."

Tommi takes you by the hand and makes you sit on the couch with him, wrapped up in his warm and welcoming arms, and you finally relax yourself disappearing in his hug.

Pic taken from Tommi's social.