The Girl And Her Emails

a letter he'll never receive

hi

me again

I looked at your Instagram today and saw how happy you were with her. I'm happy to see you're happy. or are you happy? because happy people don't answer calls from girls they've kissed whenever she calls. happy people don't respond when the girl you had feelings for send emotional texts... or do they? well i guess we did agree to be friends didn't we. so maybe that's why you respond? i don't know

but

for a moment, when i looked at you, all the feelings i once had came rushing back in and the only thing i wanted so bad in the whole world was YOU. but that'll never happen. i could never be the girl to disrespect you or your relationship. we agreed to be friends right? so whatever you need i'm here just like you have been for me.

but i just can't stop thinking what if. what if i faced my fears and told you how i truly felt. would it change anything? would the feelings i had or are having or whatever is happening be enough to reel you back in? are you reeling yourself back in? do you have feelings? i want to know. i NEED to know. but do i?

I DO.

two words i will never say to you. because i cant bring myself to say I HAVE FEELINGS FOR YOU.

i love you.

three words we'll never say to each other because i already said goodbye. the last time we kissed was the goodbye letter i didn't know i was writing. i mean does anyone?

my thoughts have been all over the place until the other night when we had a conversation. i was able to explain my feelings about something that bothered me and it helped me realize that we'll always be just friends. and im okay with that.

i can't hold you back from exploring the world and trying new things. new experiences. i can't hold you back from a life you deserve. and most importantly i can't hold you back from finding love.

because love always wins.

at least in this case.

because i love you

but

you'll never know.

sincerely,

the girl before

AUTHORS NOTE

Hi! Thank you so much for reading the first part of this short story. This story is purposely writing this way. I wanted it to feel like the readers ( you guys ) are literally reading her emails ( that she never sends) to this guy.

The background of this story is a young girl who once started dating this guy but had to let him go because she felt like she would hold him back from exploring the world and doing things he wanted in life.

Some of us could relate to that feeling. Maybe even the feeling of not being good enough for some one. I want to tell you this .. YOU are good enough. You are enough. You matter very much. Don't push people away. Allow them in. We'll get hurt. That's life. Brush your self off and try again. Because one day you will be happy that you at least tried. :)

Stay tuned for more short stories. I hope you enjoyed this one.

Alexa play Adele - When we were young :)