Sweet Comeback of the Misunderstood Villain [BL]

Chapter 2

I'm in my room exploring the thing that fell from the sky earlier.

I discovered a novel in a circle thing that is coincidentally similar to the life of the peoples. Especially, now, the current time. The stories, the place, and mostly, the characters.

It stated that there are three class of peoples in the world Cestē, in short, my world.

The first one is Aidin, they are the peoples who were good, normal, and brings justice to the world, humans.

The second one is Serverants, they are the neutral class of people, they don't side with anyone, they were independent, like elves.

The third one is Kieshkagal, they were the people who wants to bring hell in the world, the destruction, and the fall of the world, demons.

But it added that it was actually four. The last one is,

The Celestials. They are the otherworldly beings. They are the one who has long exceeded the human capabilities. They were treated as Gods. But they were long forgotten as they don't appear. It's like the myths or legends were the story of the Celestials.

So I'm feeling that this thing in my hand right now, is a celestial. Why? Because it contains the future of my world. I'm not dumb enough to pretend that this isn't true because in the first place, how did it know what was currently happening in my world? There is no way such coincidence exist.

I was about to explore more after reading half of the novel but my butler called and said it's time for family dinner.

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Ah, this family. They got what they deserved. After I betrayed my country, they were executed, but before that, they were torture near half to death before receiving guillotine.

They are the one who abused me and would always beat me up whenever I act on my own and not following etiquettes.

My mother used to throw disgust gazes at me and my father would just stare happily to me whenever I'm bullied by my siblings.

Today, it was the same as the other days. The only difference is, I would not let them do things however they want starting now.

"The fool is here." my oldest sister, Rutchel Falcon-Sol.

"Now my night is ruined." he rolled his eyes before finishing his food and left. He is my oldest brother, the heir of the Falcon-Sol archduchy, Ceramount Regally Falcon-Sol.

After he left, one by one, they also left. I have five siblings and I happened to be the youngest. My father, Ceralen Zeke Falcon, is the duke of the Falcon Dukedom, one of the three influential dukedoms in the kingdom. My mother, Selena Vonshiere, is a princess but happens to inherit the position of an Archduchess after his brother, the emperor, ascended to the throne, she married father and the Sol Archduchy became my father's belonging. So we, the children of Archduchess Sol and Duke Falcon, also has a royal blood. Therefore, we are part of royalties.

Now, I'm left alone which is a good thing. I ate my food without caring about the maid's glares who didn't even bothered hiding it. But since it has become so uncomfortable and I became irritated as fuck, I burst out.

"I'll poke your eyes if you continue staring at me with that look!" I glance at her place with murderous intent. Unfortunately for her, I even planned to throw a pork which I really did. Although it did not hit her eyes, it hit her cheek. Tears suddenly started flowing from her eyes unconsciously since she still haven't recovered from the shock.

I have my limits, bitch. You think I don't know you steal a gold from me?

She came running away after grasping at the situation and the other maids inside tensed. That's right, I'm a villain. So this should be a normal circumstances in my house. I'm the boss.

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I'm reading my life in this mysterious thing. It tells how I feel and what did I do to my own country. It said that I was evil and will always be evil because I am born evil. I badly want to kill this author. How am I evil exactly? Is it bad for me to defend myself? Why can I never defend myself? Can I never defend my dignity? Because of the narrow minded author, he just ignored the other character's sufferings and uses us as a stepping stone for the main characters.

We are used as a bridge to connect and deepen the character's trust to each other. How unfair. Didn't he even think about us? 

I wanted to talk to that supposed creator of us and ask if he even consider the villain's feelings, our feelings. It doesn't matter if we die, others would be happy. But if we were to solve and survive our problem, people would get mad. I just-- I don't understand.

Why? Don't we matter? Are we simply just characters that was meant to exist for someone else? Can't we live the life we want? I want to ask everything but I know I wouldn't be able to. Simply because no one cares.

We are the walls to their great success. We are someone who will never achieve greatness. We are someone who can never be called 'heroes', something I dreamed to be like when I was a kid.

We can never be that special someone in a fairy tales. We are someone no more than a stone stuck in their way of success. We are someone everybody does not want to have. In the end, we are considered evil for seeking something everyone seeked, we are called devil because we don't have someone to rely on. We are hated because we don't matter, what matters in the end is that we will still die no matter what we do.

I wanted to give up my life. I badly wanted to kill myself in my mother's womb. Why didn't they just abandon me to death when I was an infant? It was better than living coldly in the world where peace will never exist for us, where happiness can never be found, where the light have left us leaving us in the everlasting darkness.

Revenge seems good but it was impossible. If I did that, I would just bring myself near to death, I don't want to die by their hands. I want to die honorably. Even if this country will betray me, I wanted to die honorably for this country, I don't want to be remembered as someone who was evil to his own homeland.

Honestly, I don't know what to do. I don't know where to start. I don't know what to think.

At this point,

I just really wanted to give up.