You've Got Me Helpless

Chapter Ten: Friends for Now

*John POV*

As he played the last chord, I couldn't help but sit there in awe. Who the fuck gave him the right to be this talented?! I was so lost in thought that I didn't realize he had turned to face me until he spoke. "That bad, huh?"

"Quite the opposite actually." I was stunned, his voice and songwriting abilities were just- I don't even know how to explain it in words. "I absolutely loved it. And that is the understatement of the year."

His face immediately lit up, "Really?" He seemed shocked that I loved it as much as I did.

"Of course!" I start, earning a grin from Alex. "Although can I ask why you decided to write a song about Lin? I mean, can't complain, he's great, just curious."

"Well, you know that I minor in musical theatre." I nodded, telling him to continue. "I have been wanting to write a musical for some time, I just never knew what to write about. So why not something that I know an odd amount of information about?" I once again nodded my head. It did make sense. The man who knows Lin's life better than Lin himself. "Now, if I may, I think it's my turn to ask you a question."

"Go for it" I reply. Slightly worried about what he was going to ask.

"Probably a weird thing to question, but why did you say you would marry me? I mean I know it's just a stupid game and I am probably way overthinking this, and now that I am saying it out loud I hear how stupid I sound so I am going to stop talking now." He just stood there, a nervous mess, picking at his nails as he awaited my response.

It was a slightly strange question, but I could see where he was coming from. Kind of. "I mean, I am not exactly sure?" I stated although it sounded more like a question than an answer. '"Well I mean, there was a reason, just one that I don't think you are looking for." This caused him to tilt his head to question what I meant. "It may sound weird, but I feel like I know you. I know we have only known each other for so long, but- I dont know, I am going to stop talking before I say something stupid."

"Can I ask you another question?" I was the one to tilt my head in confusion this time. "Do you like me?"

I stood there shocked. "Of course I like you! That's a stupid question, Hamilton!"

Alex facepalmed as slightly shook his head, a slight smirk on his face. "Not in that way Laurens."

"Oh." I stood there, not exactly sure how to answer. Did I like Alex? Yes. Was it merely a celebrity crush? Maybe?

"Is that all I get? An oh?" Alex replied with a chuckle. "It's alright to answer, you know."

"I mean- Ugh. Maybe?" I finally replied after about five minutes of pure silence. "Like yes. But no? Ugh I have no clue." Hamilton was clearly entertained by my indecisiveness. I still wasn't exactly sure of my answer. Even as Alex stared at me, his chocolate brown eyes brought me to another universe... okay. Maybe I do know the answer?

"Yes!"

*Alex POV*

After some silence, Laurens finally shouted yes. Did this come as a surprise to me? No. Did I wish he didn't like me in that way? No. He was caring, and adorable, and sweet, and kind, and handsome, and I am going to stop now before I sound like a creep. "You're not freaked out, right? I mean there are probably thousands of fans that have a crush on you. I hope I didn't cross a line." Oh, and did I mention how caring he is.

"No John, you did not." I started simply, pulling him into a quick hug. "If I am being honest, I was hoping that would be your answer." I saw his eyes shoot open, now full of shock. "I know, I know. And when you said the whole thing in the game earlier it brought up how I think I like you too?"

John lightly chuckled, "You sound as sure as me now," He commented, continuing to laugh.

"Yes, I know, I'm hysterical," I commented, now laughing along with him. "But honestly. I do think I like you? I-I have never really liked anyone like this before and other things make it somewhat hard to tell. But I think I do?" Once again, he tilted his head in question.

"I'm not exactly sure what you mean by that?" He questioned. I started to mess with the hem on my hoodie with one hand, picking at my nails with the other. John clearly picked this up and quickly added "You don't have to tell me if you're not comfortable, I just wasn't sure what you meant. Okay?"

I quickly nodded, not sure if I was going to actually tell him. The only person I have told this to was James. The next week he died. Then when I was planning on telling my cousin Peter, He committed suicide the next day. I haven't had the best track record telling people this. But I dont think John would be one to judge. Would he? No, he wouldn't. It's John. He wouldn't even hurt a fly! Ok, I got this. John won't die if I tell him. It was just a horrible coincidence. I got this.

"If I tell you, you have to promise not to tell the rest of the group until I'm ready. Fair?" He quickly nodded his head, scooting closer to me in the process. "I'm asexual." I squeak out as fast as I can.

The smile on John's face helped me quickly calm down. "Hey Alex, It's nothing to be ashamed of okay." He quickly grabbed my hand and started to rub circles which again, helped me to calm down. "If it helps, Eliza is also ace. She still dates. I think we talked about Maria during the game." I nod, understanding where this was going. "I, nor anyone else in this group will ever hold that against you okay?" I again nod to answer his question. "Now you dont have to answer this, but are you just asexual, or are you homoromantic, biromantic, heteroromantic?"

"Homoromantic" I quickly responded.

"I guess that would make sense. Less than five minutes ago you said you may like me." He chuckled, I followed suit.

"So about this whole we like each other thing?" I started. "I know I was the one to bring it up, but if we could maybe give us some more time before we hop into a relationship? I've never really dated anyone before?"

"Of course. Friends?"

"Friends." We pulled each other into a hug, and I took this opportunity to whisper in his ear. "Friends for now anyways."

A/N: hehehe... Long time no see huh... Yeah, I apologize for that. I started my senior year in late June and I have been extremely busy since. Dont worry, this book isn't going anywhere, I just need to find time in the day to actually write. I do have some plans for this book so far, but if you have any suggestions that would be great! 

Also, the other day I was editing the story and going through and cleaning it up a bit, so if you got notifications from that, that is what that was about.

As always, have a great rest of your day! =)