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Ahalya dumps another ladleful of curry in her plate and mixes it with the rice. She keeps her concentration on the laptop screen. She doesn't care that she's eating in the kitchen. Or that she's standing in the moment. There's uneasiness in her, watching them talk for a long time.

She holds a piece of potato to eat but stops. Vishwa has turned towards the camera. The gesture feels like a warm embrace to her. He smiles, and she understands. A weight has been lifted off her consciousness. She sighs and eats the potato piece. Chewing. Thinking. Chewing. Thinking. Swallowing. Thinking. She wonders what happened. What changed his mind?

Behind the laptop, Vishwa's notebook lies on the table. She's the only person who knows of its existence. A perk of being a writer's wife, perhaps. It's a collection of his poetic scribblings from when he was a teenager. She made a habit of reading them whenever they fight. She never expected Vishwa would write poetry. When he first mentioned it, she was genuinely surprised. She presumed he was too in his head for something like poetry. God, is she wrong!

Some days like today, she couldn't read past the first page. The first poem. It was in the messy, cursive handwriting of a sixteen-year-old Vishwa, which makes more sense than their love story. She stares at the page, half-reading, half-caring.

Having (A poem by Vishwamitra)

I have a mother

Just like

I have water to drink,

air to breathe

and a planet to live

They don't go anywhere

if i don't need them

Somehow, it isn't enough

Having is a minimum

Having is an obligation

I have a­—

heart?

Ahalya wonders again: What calmed him down? 

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