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Chapter 34
• i didn't want to avoid suna but honestly it was awkward with him around at most. some of them didn't feel that way but i know at some point they got awkward when it usually wasn't.
i got out of the show and changed into sleep wear, i wore a grey tee and some comfy sleep pants. i got out of the bathroom and went down stairs.
looks like i was the first out. i went outside and saw suna sitting the hot tub still and was playing music while he looked at the stars. it was a song i knew, one of my favorite songs.
"hey suna" i said slowly taking a step forward. he looked at me. "i'm done using the shower, you can go ahead and use it now" i looked at him. he looked relaxed and less tensed up, he looked good. the only response i got was a little hum and a slight nod.
i turned around and was about to leave.
"y/n" he said, i turned my head.
"yea?"
"is there something wrong with me?" he asked
"no?"
"then why does it feel like there's some type of wall between us? i don't really like it" he sighed a little and tilted his head so he could see me. "if it's about my girlfriend, just stop, it's really none of your concern, just stop worrying, i'll be okay, i am okay"
i didn't know what to say. i just opened the door and went back inside. i just stood there for a while. i didn't know what to do or how to feel.
"y/n?" osamu came out of no where. i stood up straight and looked at him. "i'm all done, is suna gonna go shower yet?"
"no not yet" i said trying to sound normal as possible
"is there something wrong? did he say something? if it sounded rude, it wasn't, he's just like that, don't take it the wrong way okay? cheer up" he patted my back and led me to the living room where the others were.
after a few minutes i heard suna come in and go to the bathroom.
i was still kind of spaced out from what he had said, how he looked. the dead, emotionless expression on him.
"y/n, we're gonna go to sleep" atsumu and yuto yawned. "it's already 3 in the morning"
"alright, yuto you can sleep in the other guest bed room" i yawned as well, when i looked around he was already passed out on the couch. i sighed.
"i'll take the other one while suna and osamu sleep in the other" atsumu said. i only nodded. "also y/n, i heard what he said, don't worry too much about it, he's like this at times"
"yea" i hesitated. "night stumu"
"night" he patted my head before leaving.
"ima go too" osamu stretched his arms before leaving.
"alright" i went with him. suna was in the bathroom next to my room.
"night" osamu said before leaving. i nodded and went to my room.
i laid in my bed thinking about what suna, and atsumu had said from say before. maybe i am being a little too nosy. i thought about over and over. i seriously couldn't sleep because of it. i saw the alarm clock next to my bed, it's only been an hour. i sighed.
i turned back and forth and soon kicked and hit my bed. i groaned in annoyance.
"i can't sleep" i sighed. i heard someone's door open from downstairs. the foot steps got louder and louder and soon i heard a knock at my door. i tensed up and hid myself under the covers.
i heard my phone buzz. i looked at it and saw it was suna. 'open the door' it has said. i gulped and got up from my bed. i opened the door and saw suna in a tank top with basketball shorts on.
"hi" i slightly whispered. he didn't respond but just stared at me. it made me tense. i looked away. we stayed that way for a while.
"y/n" he said. i don't know why, but when he said my name this way, it sounded a little different. my heart pounded. i looked at him in the eyes.
he put his hand on my chin and leaned in, before i knew it he kissed me. it was nice, his lips were soft and plump. i slightly kissed back before i realized what was happening. i was caught off guard. i put my hand on his chest. he put his hand on my back pulling me forward.
i pushed him away. i looked at him before looking at the ground.
"suna..." i said "stop please... i don't like this" i slightly bit my lip and cliched my fist. "i don't like it when people do things without permission. so stop. i don't like you or what you do with others. i don't like it. i don't like how you make me feel. so stop, just go back to sleep" i said. he didn't say anything, i looked at him for a little. the same dead, emotionless expression rested on his face.
"i'm sorry..i just wanted to see how i would feel or how you would feel, but i felt nothing, i'm sorry" he said.
my eyes widened. i nodded a little. "it's okay" was all i could say. i closed my door and laid on my bed. i didn't know what to, i couldn't cry. i didn't want to.
