The Eternal Rose-Forever and Always.

Chapter 42.

~ When you care for someone more than they deserve , you get hurt more than you deserve
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Harry'sPOV.
I watch her intently as she goes on to talking about Brent and her moments that they shared together. And I did notice how awkward she gets whenever she has to say something about past and that's what frustates me.

And I am beyond annoyed right now.

She thinks that it was tough for her to come out of that sad phase when she was the one who left me with a goddamn note which was full of shit saying that " you are better off without me". How could she think that when I did everything to work out this relationship and she just ran away leaving me a note full of bullshit. Maybe she wanted attention or she was too lonely that she fucked up with my feelings and then left me.

I look at her , observing her. She is beautiful and she drives me crazy. That's the reason why one moment I am pissed off at her but the other moment I am just happy that I fell for someone as beautiful as her , both outside and inside.

"So at that time , life was depressing because of few things that happened in my past. I couldn't or wasn't able to deal with it so I was an emotional wreck but Brent actually made me feel happy. He used to find these stupid ways to make me laugh. So it was actually I got dependent on him. He became a source of happiness in my life." She says. 'And life was depressing because of past?' i really want to laugh at her right now and I cant seem to control the anger boiling inside of me. She is mistaken if she thinks I did not suffer.

"We became best friends. Just best friends. I wasn't in a position to fall in love and things never got awkward between us. It was understandable that we are just bestfriends and that no matter what we both are here for each other. So like I said that we have an unique bond that is something which is unbreakable. But now that he i-is going , I have no idea what am I gonna do. Cause you see no matter what your past does leaves few scarswhich cannot be fixed in a way. My life , from last one year , has revolved around him and now it'll be like a huge part is missing and- " there is going to be a huge whole in my life and no matter what his presence will always be missed and no person can take his place" She is really out of breath now.
And yes 'No matter what your past does leave a scar.'Yes , it really does. And the type of scar that you left on me Crystal is still causing me pain. But you dont care. Obviously.

I have been waiting to ask this and I guess this is my moment.

"What was so bad about your past that you just happened to be an emotional wreck and you couldn't seem to recover?" Though I am not looking in her direction but I can feel her eyes on me and that she is beyond shocked.

"W-what?" She whispers.

"You heard me , didn't you?" I look at her and she has turned pale.

"No , yes. I mean yes I did hear you!" She answers , looking somewhat terrified.

"So tell me!" I insist. Even though I know she has gone into a shock but I can't help just roll my eyes on that expression she is holding right now. Cause I need answers.

"You.. I -I can't. I can't answer the question." She says.

"And why?" I cant help but feel irritated. she wasn't having a problem a while ago talking about Brent and now she can't answer my question. Now its too late. To refuse.

"I don't know. That's a personal question. I can't answer it."

"Oh. Well I think asking about Brent and your journey with him so far is too a personal question. But you didn't have any probllem in answering that" I snap.

"I-" She opens her mouth to say something but shuts it quickly.

"What? You dont have an answer?" I laugh. A humor less laugh.

"You aren't fooling anyone here Crystal." I stand up.

"You aren't gonna get away from this question." I tell her and I can tell that she is scared.

I get out of her apartment and get in mg car. I increase my speed and I know that isn't good but I don't have control on myself.
Incidents from past replay in mind.
Flashback (1)
"No , come back. Please come back. I am sorry. Please. Come back." I scream out loud.

"Harry! Wake up Harry. You are fine. Its a nightmare mate"

"Crystal. Where is she? Is she fine?" I ask , the person sitting right beside me. I shut my eyes and open to find Louis and Liam.

"She'll be fine." They say.
Flashback Ends (1)
I slam on the brakes and put onto the side of road. I hit on the staring wheel.

I close my eyes and not surprised to see another awful memory invading my thoughts.
Flashback (2)
" Harry stop. You are gonna break all of the stuff here. Hell you have destroyed your apartment. Stop it Harry" Louis says.

"Why Louis? Tell me why the hell she left me?" I
And I fall onto my knees as tears form at back of my eyes.

"You'll find her mate. She loved you and you did too. You still love her and she'll come back." He says.

"She won't. Its been 6 months Lou. I don't know if I can take it more." And for the first time I cry.
Flashback Ends (2)
"Why Crystal? Didn't I love you enough! Just tell me why!!" And I rest my head on the wheel.

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A/N
Hope you enjoy the chapter.
I love you all! Thank you.

Kiarateenxx~