where it all began

three.

Ellen's pov:

I am driving over to Kates with tears rushing down my face trying to hide myself within the noise 

of my children. I pull up and wipe my tears as I proceed to get the kids out of the car. "mommy 

where is we?" Eli said "we are at auntie Kates." "who's vat?" "she just said our auntie dummy-" 

Sienna replied "MEANIE." he said. "ENOUGH! both of you!" I grab all my kids hands and walk up 

to the door and knock. Kate comes and opens the door "well heyy there ladiesss-" then she 

looks at Eli "and boy." everyone laughs and we walk in. "so your room is upstairs to the left ellen

 and then the kids can share the room right across the hall!" Kate said and I smiles "thank you

 again for having us!" she smiles and the kids ran upstairs to the room. "soo... is this a thing you

want to talk about or kinda hold it in.." Kate said and so I answered back with "I want wine" and 

tried to avoid the question. "ON IT! that is one thing im good at! white or red?" she asked "red of

 course." "you know you are going to have to tell me what happened eventually" I sigh "ya ya..." 

as I sit down "well I was out for a little and then when I came back the kids were all downstairs 

playing and I walk upstairs to see chris and Jill in bed. so I called pat and it looks like he's giving

 her another chance and I just cant wrap my head around why!" "well ellen.. isn't that was you

 and pat have been doing for the past 15 years.." "what?" I asked confused "sneaking around 

having sex and stuff. so why exactly are you this mad? isn't this what you wanted.." I just look at 

her "not exactly.. I mean ya we did sneak around and have sex but its different.. THIS is different"

 "how so?" she said sipping her wine "be-because it just is oka-" i get cut off by my loud ring tone

 and pick my phone up to see who it is "what the actual fuck-" "what what?"  Kate said very

 interested. I started reading the message from Jill out loud:

jill- I dont understand how you can be soo upset about this..Patrick forgave me so why cant you forgive chris- me and chris KNOW that you guys have slept together before and it was probably more than once! you have no ground to be mad and for you to go run away with the kids shows that its better off running from your problems then facing them- is that really something you want to show your kids? 

"WHAT THE FUCK!" ii said extremely mad and began typing very fast

ellen- excuse me but this is not your business.. you have done enough and by you texting me isn't making it any better.. to walk into my house and have SEX while my KIDS ARE DOWNSTAIRS is not okay- what would have happened if one of them walked in on you guys.. what would have have said to them? hm? because you should feel SICK to your stomach right now but instead you are texting me thinking its your place.. dont EVER reach out to me again or we will have a bigger problem...

"wow okay so shes so stuck up and self centered to be able to text me but then when I put her in 

her place she leaves me on read! okay I got the message." Kate just stood there in sick slowly 

chugging her wine down "im so done with today.. im confused and I SUPPOSED to forgive 

chris.." I asked "I- I uhm see uh hm thats uh thats tough its not my place to tell you what to do so

 if you think that you cant forgive him then that isn't up to me its you.." "you do have a point but 

I think that the kids would have a really tough life and I just cant put that kind of stress on 

them.." "so dont.. do it for the kids! maybe text him and tell him to go out to lunch with you or 

something just to talk things out.. or not even but just to sit face to face instead of being mad 

and hiding it!!" "ya your right." I said standing up and grabbing my phone "ill text him right now." 

ellen-  chris.. im not texting you because I "forgive" you but I think its best we talk things out.. for the kids you know? we have been through a lot together and you have been there for me most of my life and I think deep down I cant find myself to forgive you eventually.. so how about dinner tonight?

chris- ok sounds good.

"oh- well damn." Kate said grabbing more wine "THATS IT? THATS ALL I GET "ok sounds good" 

WHAT IS THAT!" I am very much mad right now but im going to go upstairs and get ready just to 

do it for the kids! gotta play nice in the sandbox. "okay well im going to go get ready." I walk 

upstairs and start to pick out my outfit. I grab this pant suit and throw it on and just do my hair 

so I look half way decent. I walked "okay im going out for a bit! but ill be back in like an hour!! I 

love you guys mwahh." I walk out and then down the stairs  "okay Kate im off!!" "HAVE FUNNN!!"

 she shouted from the kitchen and I walks out to my car and drove off. I pull up to the restaurant

 and I see Chris so I slowly walk over to him "hi" I said "hey" he replied and I walked up the stairs

 with him following not that far behind.. we got up to the front and I say the QR code for the 

menu "hey can I have your phone, I need to do the menu." "ya sure" as he pulled out his phone

 and handed it to me. when I bent down I sw pat and Jill from the corner of my eye "what-" I said

 quietly and I went to go scan the code when a message from Jill popped up 

Jill- I know that we aren't talking anymore but what happened if im pregnant.. will you be there for the baby?

I stand up and hand him his phone with a big smile on my face like nothing happened and 

MARCH over to pat and jill's table "hi" I said with the biggest smile on my face before I grabbed 

jill's ear and dragged her over to the steps so know one can see me people the sit out of her. 

"owe owe owe" "so you think your pregnant now?" I said before I slapped her across the face 

"sleeping with my husband wasnt enough? you needed to have something to remind you of that

 day forever?" "WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?" she said "the message. I SAW THE MESSAGE 

SO THERE IS NO SAVING YOUR SELF NOW "she pushed me and I pushed her right back until we 

were in a full on fight and then she kicked let leg really hard and all I remember doing is pushing 

her so hard that she tumbled down the stairs. those were some big stairs was the only things 

racing through my mind as she was falling down them. when she came to a stop she didnt move 

let alone get up.. my heart started pounding. DID I KILL HER?