Journal Entry 4:
So it's been almost a month since I went to the hospital and Sanji hasn't spoken a word top me since. It turns out, I was actually ok. I guess that I must have had some slightly torn up stomach tissue (from many years of underage drinking) and Sanji hit a weak spot, causing me to puke up some blood. The only reason I write today is because Sanji actually spoke to me again today. He did what he usually did and said that he needed to talk to me. I walked outside, once again it was after school, and he practically dragged me to this bar that I liked going to. He lit a cigarette outside the building while I went inside and ordered a beer. He looked at me distastefully before going on . "Hey, I'm sorry for last month..." He looked at the ground and let out a puff of smoke. I took a swig of my beverage and shook my head. "Nah man, if you'd have broken a bone or fatally wounded me or something then yeah, I'd be seriously pissed." He looked at me almost annoyed before saying, "No, but still..." He scratched the back of his neck and I finished my beer. I went inside and ordered another one, but when I came out, Sanji was flirting with some girl who was obviously uninterested. I felt a jealous rage fill me and I almost wanted to yell out something along the lines of, 'Sanji, I love you, please don't flirt with anyohne else when I'm around you!' I already felt a little cloudy by the ending of my first beer, so when I was about half-way done with the second, I drunkly put my arm around Sanji's waist and pulled him in to kiss him. His one eye that was showing was wide-open and he was blushing like mad. "Zolo, I don't know how drunk you actually are, but-" I cut him off with another kiss and then I somehow had a moment of being sober. "Shit." I whispered slightly before I ran away. I could feel him and several other people staring after me. I felt humiliated and I just ran blindly until I almost got hit by a car. I walked home and looked at my phone. I had a text from my good friend Nami.
Nami: OMG ZOLO IS IT TRUE?!
Zolo: is what true?
Nami: DID YOU AND SANJI MAKE OUT????
Zolo: WHAT?
Zolo: WHO TOLD YOU THAT?!
Nami: well, one of my friends was at the bar and she said that she saw you snogging Sanji.
Nami: is it true?
Zolo: sadly, yes.
Zolo: but i was drunk.
Nami: ooh i didn't know you were gay Zolo!
Nami: i thought you and Tashigi were a thing?
Zolo: not really
Zolo: ya know what? fuck u
Nami: lol ok see you tomorrow
I felt really pissed by this point. Mainly because there would be rumors spreading like a wildfire and I didn't want this to affect my grades or, more importantly, my three-sword fencing. I would really only be willing to give up three-sword fencing, popularity, and good grades if only Sanji would love me.
-Zolo
