Journal Entry 9:
I am seriously considering killing myself now. I went to school and I didn't see Sanji there so I thougt, 'Oh, he must still be sick.' and carried on with my day. After school, I saw those guys from yesterday try to come up to me. I ran to Sanji's house and opened the door and dashed inside. When I got there, I saw that Sanji wasn't alone. A really pretty cheerleader was kissing him. I looked at him and the girl and the first thing that came out was, "WHAT THE HELL?!" I saw the girl look back surprised and I saw Sanji's face covered with dread. I looked at him and felt my face get red as I raised my voice. 'I CAME HERE TRYING TO DODGE SOME DUDES THAT WANT TO RAPE ME JUST TO VISIT YOU BECAUSE YOU'RE SICK AND THIS IS HOW I'M GREETED?!" I yelled. Sanji moved the girl off his lap and stood up and walked over to me. "Zolo-" He began but I cut him off. "NO SANJI I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT!" I damn near slapped him I was so mad. I just wanted to punch his face and cry and kiss him at the same time. I decided that I would do none of the above. "Zolo, it's not what it looks like." He said calmly while running a hand through his hair. I crossed my arms and looked at him. "Oh yeah? Well it looked like that cheerleader was snogging you." I said bitterly. He looked at me and said, "Well, then yeah it's exactly what it looks like." I stared at him in disbelief. He looked like he was going to go on, probably to justify what he was doing, but I was going to have none of it. "Well, I guess I'll be on my way. Enjoy your slutty cheerleader Sanji. I hope she makes you happy." I stormed out of the house even though I heard Sanji run after me. "ZOLO! WAIT!" He yelled. I flipped him off over my shoulder and continued walking. I heard him stop and I felt him stare at me. I heard him turn around and walk back to his house. When I got home, I yelled at the top of my lungs, "GOD DAMMIT SANJI!" I threw myself onto my bed and put my face into my pillow to cry and rage. I let out a rainbow of curse words as I sobbed and screamed. When I finished I decided that just in case things got too rough out there in the world, I would keep a handgun by my bedside and a razor blade in my bathroom. Better safe than sorry.
-Zolo
