I Won't Tell -Zayn Malik Au-

Chapter Thirty Three

~Gabriel Pov ~

"You're what?" I heard Luke on the other end.

"I'm accepted into University of London." I smiled caressing the fur of my stuffed lamb in my lap. "The letter came in the mail today."

"Oh my god, thats great news! Congratulations babe." Luke said. I could tell he's probably grinning from ear to ear. "You know what this means? Celebration!"

I chuckled softly. "Oh, no -"

"Oh, yess. I know how much this means to you. You've always wanted to get into that school, and now look... you're in. Gosh, this is like the best news i've heard all day." Luke said. "I'm so proud of you."

I nodded, closing my eyes rubbing my temple with my spare hand before emitting a huge sigh. I don't know if i'm proud of my next move i had planned. This is going to be hard. "Something's wrong, i could tell." Luke say. "Whats up?"

I think he could tell by how quiet i've gotten over the phone. He know me well enough to know something's up. "Um, i've talked with Dr. Sampson today. And, I, uh made my decision, you know with the pregnancy."

I could hear shuffling on the other end before he spoke. "You did?"

I nodded. "Its a hasty decision but it had to be done." My eyes started to burn as i looked to the ceiling to keep tears from falling.

"You know i'm here, alright? Just know i respect with whatever you decide."

A tear escaped and fell on my lap, i quickly wiped it away putting a small smile. "T-Thanks Luke. I couldn't ask for a better friend but you."

"You mean you couldn't ask for a better jerk?"

We both laughed until a knock was heard on my bedroom door. "Gabby? May i come in?" My mother's voice heard outside my door.

"Um, Luke i got to go. I'll talk to you later."

"Okay, sure. Later." He say. And we both hung up.

"Come in." I called out dabbing away at my eyes as the door opened and she walked in. "Hey."

"Hey. Hi." My mother smiled. "Oh, I got your tea and blueberry muffins. Thought you might need a treat." She chuckled softly setting my steaming on my bedside table and the plate of mini muffins beside it. She took a seat at the edge of my bed, rubbing my knee comfortingly. "You alright, baby? Anything you want me to do for you?" 

I shook my head giving her a soft  smile. "No thanks." 

"Okay."

"Oh yeah, i want to show you something." I say picking up the envelope beside me and handing it to her

We sat in silence as i  watched her open up the letter and read the letter. Her eyes widened and a smile appeared on her face. "Oh my god, this is amazing! You're accepted! I'm so proud of you, hun." She chuckled leaned over and engulfed me in a hug.

As we pulled apart she noticed my expression changed and realized something else was bothering me. It's a few seconds of silence before i spoke. "Mum, i'm sorry. Really, i am." I looked up at my mother.

She then looked me straight in the eyes. "Well, i have  to say .. I'm still pretty surprised."

I nodded. "Mm-hmm. " Then i emitted a sigh rubbing at my temples. "Oh, mum" I wiped away a tear with the back of my hand.

"Sweetie, i'm right here. You can talk to me." I felt her hand rubbing my knee gently.

"You have everything planned out, what you want to do with your life , and then everything changes." I sighed putting my head in my hands.

"Are you planning on keeping the baby?" She wonders.

I removed my head from my hands, sniffling back tears. "You know, after watching you.. i've always wanted to be a mother my whole life."

I paused to take a breath. "I was hoping to have an amazing life with a special someone. We'll get married and.. watch his face light up when i tell him that we're pregnant.. because he's an amazing person and he'll make the best dad ever. I wanted to embrace our future, honor the love we share, and be the wife he deserves. And love the child and be a really, really good mum. And i'm going to spend the rest of my life being so grateful for my family. That's if i ever have that kind of future." I chuckled at the thought looking down at my lap before meeting my mother's eyes. "Now.. i-it's too soon and not exactly how it's suppose to be planned, you know?" I sniffled.

Her eyes stayed the same for the short amount of time that I spoke. I didn't say anything further, just waiting for something. She stayed quiet for a little awhile before a tiny smile broke out. "Honey, i know exactly how you feel. I felt the same way."

I looked at her quite confused until she spoke again.

"I know you're probably wondering 'what the heck i'm talking about?'" She sighed. "I remember one Saturday night, my friend Janice, was bored so she decided we should have some fun. So went to a party, a college party." She chuckled softly. "It was my first college party, her brother managed to get us in, even though we were still in high school. All i wanted to do was have few drinks, dance a bit, and make out with a real hot frat boy." 

We both laughed then she continued. "When we walked inside there was loud music blasting throughout the house and everyone's dancing and having a really good time. I thought it was so exciting. Janice and I had a cup of vodka, then there was this red headed guy came up to me and asked if i wanted to dance. I couldn't say no because i was so excited that a college boy asked me to dance with me."

I became very interested in this story my mother's telling me. I never knew how she was when she was younger, she never told me. Now she's finally telling me.

"We made our way onto the dance floor with everyone else and started dancing, just having a really good time. While i was so into the music, i could feel someone staring at me, i don't know. It was weird. When i looked across the room, I was met with a pair of eyes on me. And i have to say he was pretty handsome. He came over and told the poor guy i was dancing with to get lost." My mother laughed softly. "And the next thing you know, we were dancing he introduced himself and so did i." 

She bit her lip unsure if she wanted to tell me the rest. I placed my hand on my mother's arm. "Mum, please tell me."

She nodded emitting a sigh. "Um, after we introduced ourselves.. we danced a little more and thats when he said for us to go upstairs. And so we did. When we got to his room, well, i knew it his room because there were pictures of him and his friends on the wall. He pulled me over to the bed.. we began making out and um, had fun like any other young person would do. We were both intoxicated."

She paused before she spoke. "That was the night i lost my virginity."

What?! My mother lost her virginity to a college frat boy?! Wow, how come i weren't told this?! 

While i'm mentally screaming in my head, i sat silently in my spot  and continued listening to my mother's story.

"He knew i was not in college but we kept in contact and seen a whole lot of each other. Then, weeks later.. i found out i was pregnant."

"What?" I asked my voice barely audible. 

My mother nodded. "Yeah. And i was seventeen at the time ..and still in high school." She sighed. "I was already accepted into a state university and was very excited about the years to come. However, i never made it to the university. My parents basically forced me to have an abortion though i never considered it an option for me because i was still very young and had a lot ahead of me."

"W-well, did you do it?" I find myself asking.

My mother turned to look at me and gave a tiny smile. "I was in the same position as you. I was not ready at all. Abortion was never an option for me and i didn't know whether to give the baby up or not. The father wanted to be there for me and the child one hundred percent--- but i was still not sure. Throughout my pregnancy and feeling and seeing my child made me know i wanted to keep it."

"So you had the baby?"

She nodded, a happy smile was sent my way, her eyes teary. "I gave birth to a baby girl.. you."

I squeezed her fingers tighter, hating to see my mother cry. Then a thought came to mind. "Wait.. so this college frat boy was my father?"

A laugh unintentionally escaped my mother's lips, as she dabbed at her tears. "Yeah. Crazy, eh?" 

"This is unheard of."

The connection i have with my mother, just managed to cheer me up so easily. And its unbelievable. She's like becoming one of my best friends, but i'm glad to call her my mother.

"Honey, no body is really ready to have children if they're in your position. Yes, it is hard at first but again its hard for everyone. I mean, who knows your little baby could change your life. Whatever decision you make i'm sure you will make a good one."

I nodded.

She squeezed the ends of my fingers before reaching over and grabbed my tea, handing it to me. "It will be alright." She say.

I let out a heavy sigh, opting to agree with her, taking a sip from my warm tea.


 

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* Friday *

I've been ignoring Zayn and his friends for the past few days hoping they would leave me alone. They would call me names or try to get my attention but i would pretend they weren't even there, i have to say it pretty much worked. I would catch a glimpse of Zayn every now and then to see him have this horrifying death glare. I could tell he hates being ignored and i hate to think what he may have up his sleeve. Maybe i'm going to be looking forward to a beating coming my way.


I tried to be fast at my locker the next day. I really don't want to see Zayn or his friends right now; to be absolute honest i don't want to talk to anyone. I shut my locker, thats when i spot Zayn coming down the hall and it looked like he was heading towards me. I'm literally about to walk away but i hear his voice.

"Are you trying to avoid me?"

My heart began racing, so i closed my eyes hoping he would leave me alone.

"Hey bitch, i'm talking to you!" 

I flinched at the raise of his tone, i could tell he's really close. Everyone stopped in the hall to see whats going on. Soon enough i turned around to face him and he's standing right before me. "You know i don't like being ignored, right?" He said angrily.

I stared up at him wide eyed before i could open my mouth, the back of his hand collided with my right cheek. My tears were building up. Please not today.

I felt him pulled me up by the shirt and slammed me against my locker, so i was trapped. "Zayn l-let go of me!" I struggled in his grip, trying to pry his hand off by clawing at his skin.

"You deserve to be taught a lesson, you little bitch. No one ignores me, you got that?" He pointed his finger in my face while the other still holding me against my locker.

He balled his fist and i knew whats going to happen next. No, no my baby. He's not going to harm my baby.

Kids standing around laughing and hollering not even bothering to step in and stop him. Why isn't there a teacher around?

"Zayn no, no! Please.. Stop!!" I screamed trying to reach for his fist but he was going for his target. And there's nothing or anyone stopping him.

"HEY!!" An angry voice shouted. And i knew that voice out of nowhere. It gave me chills. And before i knew it, Luke stepped in. "Leave her alone!" 

Everyone stopped laughing as Luke pushed me to the side and slammed Zayn against the locker. Zayn pushed him off and right hooked Luke in the face causing him to fall on the floor. Luke didn't back down, neither of them did. Zayn was going to finish him off until Luke got up and tackled Zayn hard against the lockers. While he was punching at Zayn's sides, Zayn was pounding him on his back and kneeing him in the stomach.

This is what i didn't like to see, my best friends i knew almost my whole life fighting. Not exactly how it should turn out, its wrong. 

Soon a bunch of kids circled around them chanting. They pushed me to the side, so i really don't know what's really happening, i'm just hoping Luke didn't get badly hurt.. well, hope neither of them don't get hurt. Soon, a blow of a whistle was heard, all heads turned to see our principal, Mr. McKenzie, come storming towards the crowd causing everyone to break apart. 

"Malik! Hemmings! Office now!" He yelled, veins popping from his neck. Luke and Zayn shoving at each other all the way to the principal's office. "Everyone else, clear the hallways, now." He ordered and everyone obeyed.

"Gabby!" 

I turned to see Michael jogging up towards me. "Are you okay?"

I went into his arms, clinging onto him and quietly sobbed in his chest. "Shh, i'm here." He cooed in my hair.

"I think i'm going to wait until Luke come's from out the office." I suggested, drying my tears and pulling away from our hug.

"Are you sure?" He asked.

I nodded and we hugged. He walked down the hall and heading off to class, while i waited outside the office. Alone in the empty hall.

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A/N: I feel so deeply saddened that Zayn has left the group, but i understand why he left... its really stressful. I don't have to be famous to know how it is, i can just tell. I support him 100%... and no lie putting myself in his shoes, i'd done the same thing. Gonna miss you Zayn ♥