I Won't Tell -Zayn Malik Au-

Chapter Twenty Three

~ Gabriel Pov~

The night came, right after i finished dinner which i hardly ate only a few bites of my vegetables, i went to my room did my homework then i began scribbling doodles in my notebook out of boredom. Setting it to the side, i laid on my back, my hands protectively over my stomach. I felt a tear slid down my temple then i heard my bedroom door open, i didn't jump up from my position but continued to lay there.

"Gabby, honey you want me to get you anything?" I heard the sound of my mother's voice. 

I slowly slid my shirt, covering my stomach. "No, i'm just tired." My eyes not daring to meet hers while i continued to stare up at the ceiling.

I heard her let out a sigh. "Okay. Gabby, i'm so sorry about everything."

"Its not your fault, mum." i say almost in a whisper.

"I love you. Goodnight baby." Was the last thing i heard my mother say before i hear my bedroom door closed.

I continued to stare up at the ceiling, i began to feel like my life is ruined but the thought of a child in my arms will probably change that.  The thought of a breathing child will make me feel different than i had ever felt before tears welled up in my eyes. I felt a sickening feeling in my stomach, that uneasy feeling where you couldn't breathe. When your throat closes up and force you to take deep breath, well gasps. I turned on my side and sobbed quietly into my pillow. I wish things were back to the way they use to be. My old happy self. Not this loser and a freak everyone sees me now.

I rolled back onto my back staring back up at the ceiling then numbness took over my body as i relaxed, tears streaking my face. That's when my phone went off on my bedside table as i reached over and picked it up. I was surprised to see a text message, so i'm thinking its probably Luke, but i was wrong --- it was a text from Zayn.

I bit my lip nervously as i opened the text.

To: Gabriel
From: Zayn

You bitch, i'm sick of seeing you everyday. Why don't you do me a favor? Stay the fuck away. 

I read the text over  twice as tears are threatened to spill, just i was about reply; he sent another quick text.

To: Gabriel
From: Zayn

You deserve to die.

That literally broke my heart. I had to make sure i read it correctly, then my vision started to blur as my fingers went to work typing a reply. I didn't want to but i felt i had the need to.

To: Zayn
From: Gabriel

Yea, maybe you're right Zayn. Maybe things would be much better for you when i'm not around. I'm sorry I even exist. I'm sorry for everything i put you through. I thought we were great friends but i guess we weren't meant to be.

Tears streaming down my face as i typed out and sent the text. "You won, Zayn. You won." I whispered in between sobs, throwing my phone to the side of me while grabbing one of my pillows clutching it to my chest while i sobbed.

~ Zayn Pov ~

I sent the last text out of anger because that's just how i'm feeling right now --- angry. I still couldn't get over that thought of what happened in the past when i left her standing on the sidewalk after telling her to stay away. And we never spoke nor hang out like we use to anymore.

I set my phone beside me, taking the cigarette out of my mouth and blew smoke up into the night air. That's when i find myself taking in the sight around me. I am now outside my dim lit bedroom window sitting on the roof smoking my cigarette and looking up at the big round moon shining bright in the clear night sky, with stars surrounding it. It looked really beautiful.

When Perrie come over i would sometimes urge her to sit on the roof with me but she would be too afraid to. But come to think about it this is where Gabriel and I would always hangout right here where i'm sitting just staring right up at the night sky. We have our special moments where we talk just about anything; school, life, and what our hopes and dreams for the future; it was perfect.

What we had was perfect.

All of a sudden i was snapped from my thoughts were interrupted at the sound of my phone buzzed beside me. I took another drag from my cigarette before i grabbed up my phone, thats when i saw i have a text message. When i saw who it was from, it surprised me that it was from Gabriel. I assumed she read my last text, so i viewed the text she sent. 

To: Zayn
From: Gabriel

Yea, maybe you're right Zayn. Maybe things would be much better for you when i'm not around. I'm sorry I even exist. I'm sorry for everything i put you through. I thought we were great friends but i guess we weren't meant to be.

I don't how i was feeling at the moment until i find myself reading the last part over and over.

To: Zayn
From: Gabriel

...... You won

And i swore right then and there i felt like an horrible person.

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A/N:: I'm sorry if this chapter seem pretty short, i apologize.