OKIKAGU ONE SHOTS

Some things cannot be changed

Synopsis:

Events take place after Yoshiwara arc. Kagura was enduring the effects after her awakening when she fought with Abuto. It seems like she cannot hold it anymore

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'Blood..' The words kept echoing in her mind. Ever since her short encounter with the veteran yato, she yearns for blood. No, she needs blood. The feelings both excites and haunting her.

It's as if someone else was penetrating her mind, yearning the sensation of the battle. Her yato self. The person she dreaded the most. The person she hates the most. Again, she cannot contain her. Kagura's consciousness was almost like a child, shriveling in fear to the monster in her.

If Shinpachi had not stop her, she may lost every bit of self conscious she have left, consuming herself to the yato's killer instincts, turning her into vicious beast.

She shudders at the thought. 'No, I will not lose to myself ever again' but her mind screams, wanting to taste the sweet wine red blood, the metallic scent and the warm liquid sprayed across her face as she slaughter her victims. She shakes her head, trying to remove the thoughts,'No, I don't want to kill'

In the confinement of her own closet, she tried to sleep but ultimately useless. Her mind was restless and it starting to hurt her, 'Make it stop, Gin-chan, Shinpachi.' She cupped her ears with her hand. It's already night. She can even hear Gintoki's snoring in the next room.

She slide her closet door open and went to his room. Once she outside, she tried to open the door, but immediately stop on her track, telling herself that it's dangerous. Seeing a person, a living person defenseless. Killing him will be so easy. Imagining his silver white hair covered in blood. She shook her head. 'No, I won't kill Gin-chan. I won't.'

She back away from the doorframe, not wanting to take risk of her current self. She may kill him, without even realizing it until it's over. The sight of his body covered in blood, with guts all over his room and the face of pure horror making her nauseous. 'I can't do this. It hurts. Someone... Please help me.'

She ran quietly to the kitchen. Picking up one of the kitchen knife, she cut her wrist, hoping that it will calm her nerves. Blood start flowing out from the wound and she can feel the excitement upon looking at the red liquid. Almost as if her inner demon slowly resurfaced. 'No good. I can't stay here for now'

She look at her wounds and the blood that start to spill on the kitchen floor with some colouring her pajama's sleeves She admits that looking at it does excites the beast within her but the familiar stinging pain also helps to keep her from losing herself. She walk out of the kitchen leaving the knife on the cabinet without even bothering to clean the blood.

She slide the front door open. Maybe a walk may help her calm. She have a good look at the living room. Sadaharu is sleeping soundly on the couch. She close the door without even reaching out for her umbrella.

A few minutes passed and Sadaharu woke up, his ears twitching. His nose caught the lingering scent of blood, sensing something terrible is gonna happen.

Kagura walk slowly across the silent street of Kabuki district. It's already 2 in the morning and most of the shops are close. Even the late night bars was closing their curtains. What lucky timing.

She is not in her best appearance. Wearing crumpled pajamas with blood sticking out from the sleeves. Her hair was a mess, without wearing her usual hair ornament and letting her hair freely riding the wind.