Well tonight the monsters in my head are screaming so damn loud.
But I built walls that are so high so the monsters in my head never even make a sound.
Hiding behind a mask and a lie ,because it is the only home I've ever known,because honestly being who I really am, has only left me more alone
Honestly I am not okay and I need you to see it
I honestly have so much to say but no one to hear it,there's a reason why I keep quiet because so much is at stake,I always feel like a burden, and I always let it silence me,
You'll never understand,honestly why it's so hard to say that I'm not okay, honestly I wish I had a scar ,and a bruise on the surface or any kind of proof, That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse.
Honestly My life's invisible abuse. Honestly
I'm either judged or have to hide
The only symptom you can see
Is I don't wanna be alive
I am not okay
And I need you to see it
I have so much to say
And no one to hear it
The reason I keep quiet
With so much at stake
I always feel like a burden, let it silence me
You'll never understand
Why it's so hard to say
I'll never have the words, I can't explain this hell
But what if it kills me
If I keep it to myself?
To myself
I am not okay
And I need you to see it
I have so much to say
And no one to hear it
I am not okay
I am not okay
I'm never safe
It's not a phase
If I finally break
Would you still stay?
Tonight the monsters in my head
Are screaming so damn loud
