Robbins twin

chapter 22

Tw, drug withdrawal

AJ's pov

I woke up in the night shaking and sweating from the withdrawal from the drugs, they had been giving me Suboxone to ease me off the opioid. I couldn't stop shaking, I felt physically sick all the memories from getting clean before came rushing back as I vomited off the side of the hospital bed. I physically felt like I was dying, I just needed something to ease this shit. I led on my side curled in a ball tucking myself under the blankets trying my hardest to stop myself shaking. A nurse came in to check me over and got somebody to clean up the vomit from the floor.

Nurse Rosie. How you doing AJ?

AJ. How the fuck do you think I'm doing. What a stupid fucking question.

Nurse Rosie. Okay I'm only doing your checks, you will be given another dose at 8am.

AJ. So your going to leave me like this for 2 more hours, thank you so fucking much.

Nurse Rosie. I'm sorry AJ we have to stick to the schedule otherwise it will take you longer to get clean again.

AJ. Well you can shove your schedule up your ass. Don't fucking touch me! Get out!

Nurse Rosie. Okay, if you need anything just call and somebody will help.

AJ. I need drugs, will they help with that... No didn't think so... fucking idiot.

I thought maybe a change of position might help and ended up sitting up with my knees against my chest with the blanket wrapped around me but still the persistent shaking continued. I started to bite my finger nails trying to distract myself when another wave of nausea came over me. luckily that stupid nurse left me a sick bowl this time as I barely had time to even register that I was going to be sick again before my entire stomach felt like it was crushing, causing me to vomit once again. This is the longest 2 hours of my life. I already would rather be dead than going through this pain I have to endure any longer. After being sick once again I collapsed back onto my side, laying with my knees still right up towards my chest I started to cry hysterically. I was crying so much I didn't hear the door to my room open as somebody came in and climb into my bed with me. Whoever it was held onto me from behind, holding me tight attempting to calm my shaking.

AJ. Fuck off. Leave me.

Arizona. Fat chance of that. Let me help you.

AJ. Get off of me Arizona.

Arizona. Nope, if you haven't noticed it's actually helping so I'm going to lay here and just hold you, you can fight me all you want but I'm not budging.

AJ. Get the fuck off, or I'm going to...

Arizona. Shhh... your not going to do anything but lay there.

As my shaking came under control Arizona loosened her grip and she started to play with my hair which ended up calming my mood too.

Arizona. You need to wash your hair. How about once you have had your meds I get Rosie to help you shower. Your getting discharged at 10am.

AJ. Oh god no. She's a fucking idiot.

Arizona. Fine I will help you then.

AJ. Haven't you got something more important to do today like work?

Arizona. Nope I'm on leave and have been told they will only contact me if they are desperate.

AJ. What about Callie and Sofia?

Arizona. I will be paged if I'm needed. For goodness sake let me help you.

I turned around in her arms and she pulled me into a hug, still stroking my hair. I slowly drifted off back to sleep in her arms.