Live For Me Sunshine

I shouldn't have trusted you

Tasha's POV:
I hate that Fury gave me a shitload of work yesterday making me lie to Y/n more than I already am and follow them last night. Y/n isn't stupid I know she saw my bike in the parking lot and I know she'll ask how and why I was at Chester's Place when she didn't even tell me she'll be there but what concerns me was her nightmare, she keeps repeating these phrases but doesn't want to tell me what they're about or who is she talking about.

She's still sleeping probably exhausted from the events last night remembering what happened angers me, what gets on my nerves was why did Cillian or should I say, Sharon, got drunk while she was with Y/n if she's sober then that man wouldn't have a chance to lay even a finger on my girlfriend. I know that I shouldn't blame it on her, I just hate what happened to Y/n and I thought looking for someone to condemn will make me feel better but rebuking Sharon makes me a hypocrite, after all this investigating thing was my idea and I'm the one who's going behind my girlfriends back and lying to her.

I tucked a strand of her hair behind her ear and she leaned into my hand stirring awake I let my hand run along her back tracing her spine up and down since she's laying on her stomach, as she rubbed the sleep from her eyes "morning..." I whispered leaning down to kiss her forehead "hmm good morning..." Y/n mumbled searching for my hand and kissing the palm of it.

"Come here" shifting in my position I opened my arms so she could cuddle on my side, she scoot over burrowing her head on my shoulder, draping her arms around my waist, and tangling our legs together. If I could, I would stay here with her at this very moment just to make sure she's well and safe from any danger but I know I can't, especially if she finds out I'm the reason why S.H.I.E.L.D is after her, who knows maybe even S.W.O.R.D. With Hayward still the director Y/n and even Luciane aren't safe, I threw her at the lion's den if anything bad happened to her and her sister it's mainly my fault. I don't know if she'll even look at me when she finds out the truth.

"Are you alright Tash?" Y/n's voice flowed through the room with such gentleness pulling me out of my thoughts

"I should be the one who's asking you that, love." Only then do I realize that she's been watching me.

"I'm fine now..." She trailed off burying her head back on my shoulder before letting out a sigh.

"I'll go make breakfast, wanna come with me?"

"Hmm I'll join you later, I need to use the bathroom" she gets up making me whine internally with the loss of warmth from her

Y/n disappeared into the bathroom and I made my way downstairs to start with our meal, I'm not the best at cooking but I still manage to prepare decent food.

POV Shift

Y/n's POV:
The last night's events still tormenting me no matter how hard I try to push them away in the back of my brain they keep resurfacing making me feel frustrated with myself, I don't want to feel this way let alone let Natasha see me in this state, vulnerable and weak.

I roamed around her bathroom trying to find a spare toothbrush for me to use, rummaging through her cabinets and drawers but I was in no luck, the only place I haven't searched was the cupboard behind her mirror, I opened the cupboard and finally found what I was looking for but what caught my eyes was the flash drive hiding behind the pill bottles 'why the hell is she hiding a flash drive in here?' I whispered talking to myself, I moved the pill bottles so I could take the drive out and when I did, I didn't expect to see my name written over it 'what the fuck? Why does she have this I told Tony to keep it safe' I shut the cupboard and put the stick in my pocket. My mind can't stop but think that Natasha stole it, I know all too well that Tony will not sell me out but I also can't push that possibility away, but why, why is my girlfriend going behind my back and when even did this happen, what more lies is Natasha hiding from me. I don't want to think about it but I'm starting to doubt her. 'No Y/n, you can't do that, we need to talk to her about this first, maybe she has a good reason right?' I calmed myself down cause I know my judgment will be clouded if I let my feelings get in the way.