"Chronicles Of Bondservant Vol.3"✨ "Confessions Of A Womanizer Journey"

"OUR SECRET PAGES OF BROKEN HEARTEDNESS PT 5"

The moments we shared along this journey are priceless and I'm willing to go that extra mile that we both have had reservations about taking. 'Picture this', close your eyes.. Lately, I've been So Broken Hearted with you that I feel like I'm going to lose my mind because the thoughts of not being with you cross my mind from time to time. Then I remind myself there is no Me without you! The Gates open you already out there waiting on me with the Great 'Anticipation' of that day doing everything a wife is supposed to do in holding her husband down. Waiting on him to come take the lead of the foundation you've been holding down in our household. As you stand at the gates with our kids tears run down your eyes because 'secretly On the pages of your heart' ,you wrote...'It will be all worth the wait for this man I know is ready to show me what real love Is n feels like in my life!'

You blow kisses at me I blow them back the kids scream daddy daddy I smile I wave at all of you guys look up to the sky and sigh taking in a deep breath and exhale saying thank you God for keeping my family intact and my absence thank you for making this beautiful woman my wife and strong enough to endure this journey all with you by her side to keep her mindful and focus on the bigger picture that the enemy wanted to blind to with. So much confusion and division in but she held her ground she trusted in you and leaned not into her own understanding but in college you, your grace, mercy, love, patience and even favor the entire way. Even when you knew it got too tough for her to Bear her faith in waver... Thank you Lord I say as I step on Solid ground opposite of my impression that had me bound and bondage of calamity... "Do You See Us Now?" As you guys take off running towards me the kids ahead of you smiles on everyone's faces because God promised me he promised us when the suffering was all done we would have exceeding Joy oh what a day that would be! Can you truly wait for a man like me to be everything you've ever needed or desired from a person who wants and has so much unconditional love to give to you for the rest of your life? If you're truly see beyond these walls of what we face in adversity and only focus on the present day of our reality coming together forever and oneness one mind, one heartbeat, one soul, one spirit in unison equally and evenly yoked For better or For worse in sickness and in health to death do us part! Oh Lord what a day that'll be no more fantasies, no imagination s********* of Love affair adventures, just the reality of what we create. "Can you truly see us Now?" Imagining all my mental, emotional and sexual frustration with you finally coming to an end, I can now handle in real life. Baby I can't wait! Wait till we get home tonight I say to you as I hug you look you and your beautiful milk chocolate eyes tell you how much I miss you how much I love you and how great I am to finally start and end my life with you. Soon to be Mrs. Adams for real now in a covenant marriage of vows that were truly secretly written on the pages of our hearts before we even never met one another.' Close your Eyes' ... Babes really envision this because I want nothing more than the words I speak and convey to your heart from my heart to truly come to pass real soon someday. Is this what you truly want as I do? My "Anticipation" is through the roof right now as I let these floetic thoughts be transcribed on "Our Secret Pages" of our hearts and minds desire in Jesus name if it be his Divine will I pray that we get to see this come to pass real real soon!

As we load up in the car for the long ride home everyone is so excited and for a brief moment I drift off lost in my thoughts of how far I've come how hard this journey was the struggles the pain the tears have cried how many times I wish that it was me whose life got taken no more pain no more weary days no more sleepless nights.... I felt your warm soft hand interlock with mines and you asked me are you okay baby? I say yes I am now ‼️ say baby what do you want to eat tonight? I come out my trans and smile and look at look at you with a seriousness I've waited for a while to show you and say "My toot" smile you say cut it out slap my forearm and say PG-13 babes and I say Daddy's home 'Davue' is here now n you most definitely in trouble ! The kids laugh and say oooh , reality sets in...I'm finally physically free from all the savoring love filled moments I've had to hold in and suppress to the reality of what was just around me, but what was now around me was my family, my heart beats, my lioness and our Cubs. I was awoken from my dream as I lay on your bed butt naked exhausted from our shower adventure as you woke me up with baby oil lotion rubbing it all down the shaft of my back and my butt my arms and legs I looked up at you as you said hey love you went to sleep mommy wore you out in the shower huh she giggles and I respond yes indeed you did that baby! I thought to myself wow the dream was so real you look how far we've come I told you to lay down as I return the favor of put lotion on your body with a massage inch by inch my hands met your flesh with intense gentle softness caressing every kink of Tangled stress muscle in your body. I rub your body down you moan the sigh of release oooh, I need your touch babes my body needed you too... I slowly began to kiss you from the back of your neck down to the crease of your back your booty muscles tighten as I make it to your lower back I licked ,sucked and kissed on you all down between your booty cheeks  you spread your legs your camel toe winked at me only you and I know what happens next on "Our Secret Pages of Broken Heartedness"