Hey everyone I'm back and ready for a new chapter! Haha anyways I hope everyone enjoys and comments are very helpful for encouragement and ideas so feel free to tell me anything you like. Just as long as they aren't hateful or just plain rude. Constructive criticism is fine though. Now on with the story.
I woke up yet again with another horrible dream about the battle with Jack Noir this morning. Last time I died while trying to save Dave from one of Jack's minions, but, this time I was able to adjust to the attack and kill him without killing myself. Although, a few moments later I died due to another minion attacking me right after I killed the minion trying to kill Dave. So, it's not like my adjustment really helped much.
Dave has been really concerned about my nightmares lately. He's been trying to help but recently it hasn't been working. I am beginning to worry that these night mares actually mean something. Although, it's unlikely I don't completely doubt my own thoughts about it. Also because my grenades have been causing issues in my dreams I've opted to use throwing knives instead.
They don't seem to listen when I say that the knives are better so that I don't end up killing everyone while also trying to save them but it doesn't matter to me as long as they are safe. I am starting throwing knife practice officially tomorrow. Because the past two days I've just been looking at the different types of knives and technics without actually even touching one before.
I'm nervous that if Jack Noir actually does attack that my dream will come true and everyone will actually die just as they did in my dream. John has become a great friend of mine I would be crushed if he died. I would rather die than for all my new friends to leave me and pass on to the afterlife.
(F/N)! I am suddenly pulled out of my dreary mind when I hear the familiar yell of Karkat calling my name from down the hall. I call back, "what is it?!" Then I hear Karkat walk down the hall and open the door. "You need to come out of this room and join the rest of us.We are playing card games and Nepeta wants you to join." I agree and stand up. Then I head down the dark hallway to the living area where I see everyone gathered around the coffee table smiling and I hear the occasional laugh.
John hops up and hugs me then pulls me along by my wrist and sits me down next to Dave. "Look who finally decided to join society again." said John sarcastically to Dave. Dave looked over to me and smiled. I sat between Dave and John while I watched the card game continue to play.
As everyone played I noticed John glance over at me every now and again but as soon as I glanced back over at him he would look away. I couldn't help but wonder why, not that it could've mattered that much.
The night ended in laughter and carefree thoughts. Well all except for mine. My mind was still plagued with the depressing thoughts of earlier. I tried to communicate to everyone as happily as I could but my mind wouldn't allow me to be truly happy and worry free as everyone else was. I have never felt so distant from everyone before. I am surrounded by my best friends yet I feel as though I am in a huge crowd of people I've never seen in my life. I am lonely yet claustrophobic.
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Thanks guys for reading. I hope you enjoyed and feel free to tell me what you think. Part 9 should be out soon :)
