I woke up very peacefully and light. I haven't woke up that good in years! Pag dilat ng aking mga mata ang una kong nakita ay ang mga braso na nakagapos sa aking baywang.
I looked at my side and saw Sir Darius sleeping peacefully. Doon lamang pumasok sa akin muli ag nangyar kagabi.
Gaga ka talaga Aviana! 'Di kana virgin!
I frozed. This is bad! What was I even thinking? Why did I let that happen? Masisisante ako nito panigurado!
I slowly lifted his arms so I can get out but he even tighted his grip on my waist.
Is he awake?
He opened his eyes and smiled at me. Woah! Thats new.
"Good Morning....." He said groggily.
"Good Morning." I replied hesitantly.
I lifted his arms again so I can leave but he tighted them again.
I looked at him.
"Sir please let me go." I pleaded.
"No. Let's stay like this for a while." He exclaimed and pushed me more towards him. I am now facing his broad chest while is arms are now hugging me closer.
I protested. I tried to get out of his grip.
"Sir, I am so sorry for what happened. I promise to not speak about this to anyone....Wag ninyo lang po akong sisantehin..." I begged.
I saw his eyes darkened. His grip loosened a bit and I took that chance to get free.
I sat down the bed. I was now wearing a white t-shirt and a panty. I think he changed me.
I turned around to look at him, and he was just there, staring at me darkly. I got chills at how angry his eyes looked.
I stood up and went out of my room leaving him there.
Pumasok ako sa banyo at pinauumpog ang aking ulo sa pader.
Ano ka ba Aviana! Ano ba 'tong gulong pinasok mo? Paano mo na siya haharapin nito?
I just looked at myself in the mirror for almost 10 minutes. I washed my face and brushed my teeth.
I went out of the bathroom and went to the kitchen to cook some food. I started looking for food in the refrigerator when I saw Sir Darius walking down the stairs with his suit. His tie was not properly fixed.
"Sir magluluto palang po ako sorry." I spoked.
"Hindi ako kakain." I shivered at the coldness of his voice.
He went to the door, leaving me.
Ito ang unang beses na hindi niya ako sinabay sa pagpasok. I heard my heart shattered . Baki ako nasasaktan? Hindi lang naman ako sinabay! There's no big deal!
I just cooked some bacon and fried some eggs for breakfast. After eating I went up to take a shower. After about 30 minutes I was now ready to go to work.
Hindi ko alam anong sasakyan ko papasok. Lagi kasi akong sinasabay ni Sir dati.
Sa huli, nag-taxi nalang ako, ayokong maligaw tsaka baka ma-late pa ako.
Pag pasok ko ng building ay medyo kaunti palang ang mga tao. Umakyat ako sa 60th floor at hindi ko alam paano papasok. It just seems so awkward and heartbreaking right now.
Bakit ba kasi nilipat sa loob ng kaniyang opisina ang aking table? Ang hirap naman nito!
I knocked at the door three times then entered.
"Good Morning Sir..." I greeted him.
He didn't respond nor even looked at me. I just went to my table and put my bag on top.
Everyday, it is my habit that once I get to my table I check Sir Darius appointments for the day and tell him, but right now, I just don't want to speak to him.
For a while I was debating whether to speak to him or not but at the end, I realized I should be professional. What happened between us doesn't concerns my work. I am glad that I am still here. I am hoping na hindi pa ito ang last day ko.
"Sir here are your schedule for today. You have a 12PM luch with Mr. De Mayo, there is also a 2PM board meeting late--"
"Cancel them all." He spoked.
"P-po? Bakit po?" I asked.
"None of your business."
I bit my lip. My heart is breaking again. Why is he like this? Ako lang ba ang may kasalanan sa nangyari? Sya naman ang unang nang-halik ah? Bakit parang ako lang ang may kasalanan?
I bowed my head and played with my fingers again. I saw him pressing the intercom.
"Hello. Please request a staff here to move my secretary's table outside again. Yes, Thank you." He ordered.
My heart broke again, for the third time today. Why are you taking this personal Aviana? Diba ayaw mo naman talaga na nasa loob ka ng office nya? Tama lang naman na nasa labas ka dahil sekretarya ka lang!
I stood up from my seat and went to the bathroom. I just can't stand it! I can't let him see the tears falling from my eyes.
I looked at my self at the mirror. I look pathetic. Be professional Aviana. You are only a secretary. Just forget what happened, forget your feelings. Hindi ka tanga!
You've been in love before. Bakit hindi ka pa natuto Aviana! Mas lumala ka pa! Talagang sa Boss ka pa nagkagusto!
I know very well na masasaktan lang ako pero I didn't do anything to stop it!
I breathe in and out. It's okay. I can do this. Calm down. Be professional Aviana.
