Im sorry mom, I couldn't do it anymore, dad has been visiting me since he died, telling me I was worthless and not worth anyone's time, so im gonna end it, but you will find out soon enough, tell Mark im sorry, that I love him, tell John that I went on vacation, he much to young to know, tell Serenity I love her, and that im sorry for hurting her, but most of all mom I apologize to you, you helped me so much through these past sixteen years, that If I didn't have you I would have done this a long time ago, and mom, thank you, journaling really did help, I love you all, I'm in a better place, and don't blame yourselves, Im just not as strong as yall. Good bye. Love, James
