You look at her, but secretly I love you [l.s]

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December, 3rd 2021

You look at her, but secretly I love you-

Louis' POV:

That's what my thoughts are based on every day. I only think about a certain person, his name Is Harry, Harry Styles. But he's my best friend, of course I never told him that. No, I'm not crazy.

I really like where our relationship is right now, yeah you guessed it, good ol' FRIENDSHIP. Although I prefer having at least a friendship, mind you of years, than nothing at all. I REALLY like him.

I think everyone knows by now, not that I told anyone. I've been told I'm quite obvious. Well, I don't know about that.

Oh- I'm sorry, my name is Louis, Louis Tomlinson and that's the story where I fell in love with a boy and he fell in love- with a girl?! Yeah, I know tough luck.

Where did this all start, you ask me. Last summer, probably one of the best summers of my life. Why? I SPENT THE WHOLE SUMMER WITH HARRY! Damn, I'm whipped. Niall is the one that tells me that every damn day of my life, but I still love him, but it's different.

You see? I love Niall, as a brother. I love Harry, as in "Please ask me out, and rail me after". No, but jokes aside he is HOT, and I mean it. His face is sculpted by a GOD, and his body is sculpted by the DEVIL.

3rd person POV:

That's what Louis' nights were like. Writing in his little journal about a boy he loves so much but the boy sees him as a brother.

But, how does Louis know, you ask. Well, Harry made it clear he likes a girl named Dana. It's tragic, Louis just wants to love and be loved, yet the love of his life likes someone else. He doesn't shut up about her and it's getting on Louis' nerves.

But right now he's asleep, dreaming about Harry. Innocent (or not so innocent dreams 😏), but no one needs to know that.

Especially his mum, she's the sweetest but did she need to wake him up so creatively every day? You see, Louis has a problem with waking up and his mum just started doing this thing where she wakes him up differently so he'll wake up faster.

"WAKE UP FOR LIFE LOUIS" Jay said.

"Ugh, ok I'm awake I'm awake" Louis grumbled.

Does it work? Sometimes. Did it work today? Well, if the objective was to piss Louis off then YES! It did. She woke him up with loud music. Well, at least it was Queen, BUT STILL!!

As the loud speaker shouted "The Show Must Go On" by Queen, Louis tried to hide his boner. Which didn't work, yeah he had to wank-

He was obviously thinking about Harry and his abs. Oh my God, those abs. He has seen Harry without a shirt and caught him wanking one time, let's say he acted disgusted but had a boner.

Don't judge him, he was a horny teen at the end of the day (😉). But what got him was those arms, he wanted Harry to manhandle him, throw him onto the wall and fuck him senseless.

But what he had for now was his right hand-

After the whole wanking and fantasizing thing, he went to school. Don't get him wrong, he liked school, but he hated homework. And most importantly, waking up at 5:30AM so he wouldn't miss the bus. How his mum woke up so happy every day was still a mystery for him.

The day was the same old shit every time. Go to school, meet Harry, drool over him without anyone knowing, and finally go to his classes. 7 periods to be exact. His schedule was VILE:

1st: AICE Calculus
2nd: Biomedical Science
3rd: BSL 3 Honors
4th: First AID and Safety
(Lunch)
5th: AICE Thinking Skills
6th: Cambridge AICE General Paper
7th: AICE Biology

Why would he choose these classes? He wanted to go to college, he wanted to study BSL considering he knew many deaf people and wanted to teach BSL. He was hearing, but still wanted to teach other hearing people a way of communication with deaf people. In his opinion Sign Language should be required, just like you are born learning your first language, you should learn SL.

As he was wondering about his life after school, he finally saw Harry. At the moment Louis saw him, all of his worries and grumpiness went away. Harry just did this thing to him where he went all calm and his insides got warmer.

But Harry was not just his stunning self today. No, he decided to wear a button-up blouse but he didn't close 4 buttons, exposing his chest and the tattoos with it.

Did Louis drool? No, his knees buckled and he couldn't move. Harry found it weird but went to talk to him.

"Hi" Harry started. "How are you, Lou?"

"H- Hi!" Louis stutterd. "I'm good, and you?"

"I'm great. Wanna go to class now, love?"

Yeah, Harry called him pet names. It wasn't anything romantic, it was just that their friendship was very strong since they were what? 5 year olds so it's normal. Not that Louis didn't pretend he was calling him love in a romantic way, but no one needed to know that bit.

"Yeah, I am. Let's go" Louis said.

They went to class, did I mention they had the first 4 classes together? Well, they do. It's just more time for Louis to watch Harry's every move. Not in a creepy way, but in a cute, loving way.

"So Louis, I was talking to Dana. Oh my God, she's so adorable. She's caring and I like her" Harry confessed. Louis was not happy at all with that, so he just said "Cool"

Harry never questioned, he figured the blue-eyed boy was in a bad mood because he hates to wake up this early.

The other classes went by really fast and as usual Louis went to Harry's house. They always hung out there, it was calm and Louis loved it. It was his 3rd home. The 1st being Harry and the 2nd being his own house with his mum and sisters/brother.

Everything was fine, until it happened. Louis was laying down wearing Harry's sweater because it was cold- secretly he just wanted to smell Harry-. When Harry opened the door Louis jumped.

"You look cute in my sweater," Harry said. Louis' heart jumped. Did Harry say he's cute? No, he said the sweater is cute, not him. "It looks better on you"

"O-oh thanks" Louis shyly said. He was blushing- pathetic he thought.

They started cuddling, it was a normal thing since they were friends for a long time now. Although Louis liked to imagine they were boyfriends sometimes. Shh 🤫

What Harry did next had Louis' heart jump and jump almost exploding.

Did Harry Styles, the Goddess, just KISS him? Wtf?

"Oh. My. God. I am SO sorry" Louis exclaimed.

"Louis, it's not your fault. I leaned in first, I should be sorry" Harry rambled.

"I-it's ok..." IT WAS NOT OK! I love you, you dumbass

That's how they spent their afternoon and evening, just relaxing and cuddling. Maybe they kissed one more time, JUST MAYBE!

Louis went home. He flopped on the bad and he was so tired he just wanted to sleep. Of course he only went to sleep an hour after because he missed Harry, but how could he not? He was so cozy.

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Hi! Ema here. Thank you for reading, that's my first fanfic and I'm really excited!!!

Word count: 1292

This man is so CUTEEE!