I looked at Zafira's grave with sorrow and felt so useless, and guilty for everything I had done. I wiped tears from my eyes and ran because I couldn't take anything anymore. I don't know where to but I ran, and ran, and ran, till the zoldyck mansion was out of sight.
"Mother I'm sorry." I said looking in the direction of the zoldyck mansion. "I failed." I said tears seeping out of my eyes.
"Alluka, I'm sorry I can't save you."
"Killua I'm sorry for not understanding."
"Dad I'm sorry for not being good enough."
"Illumi I'm sorry for," I began crying more
"Illumi I'm sorry for not being killua."
I looked around and continued running towards a steep mountain.
Why can't I be enough, why can't anyone love me, why do I screw everything up, why can't I be a good person, why do I want to die?
I climbed up the mountain and felt the cool air blowing against me.
"If I jump off they won't have to deal with me. Ill be doing them a favor. I will no longer be a nuisance and a disappointment to our family." I said to myself.
My feet shifted, and I ran to the edge of the mountain. I jumped.
The fall felt peaceful knowing this would be my last time to enjoy life.
The wind was strong making me feel so cold but it didn't matter I was about to die.
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When is it my turn kalluto story
FanficMy personal diary Though you all can read it this is for the people who want to know more about me So here is how I turned out to be the way I am IT HAS GORE AND VIOLENCE
