When is it my turn kalluto story

Kal

Me and Zarfira walked out of the restraunt and stood in front of the big window letting people see into the  restaurant and at this point it started getting dark out. "So kalluto do you want to see a movie I know it's getting late but I just want to continue hanging out with you!" She said over enthusiastically again. I wondered why she was always so energetic but I didn't ask because it was just her personality after all.

I said yes and she grabbed my hands and said yay. She kinda spun me around like we were playing ring around the rosey and I began to laugh. I actually fell over and Zarfira put one hand in her knee and one hand stretched out to help me up. Right when I was about to grab her hand there was a loud bang. I looked up at Zarfira and I saw she had a hole in her head. She fell on top of me and I froze. My breathing starting getting heaver and I felt something switch inside me.

I got up and lost my composure. My aura spiked. I wanted who ever did that to die that is the one thing I want. My whole world has been destroyed. I screamed and released so much aura I destroyed almost everything around me. I grabbed Zarfira's body and began running hoping she can be saved at a hospital or a-a some place. I did not realize I wasn't breathing till I almost passed out. I don't care about this world anymore. The one person that actually loved me is gone.

I went blind with rage and sadness. Even though I had hope she was still alive I knew she was gone. I stopped running and went into a alleyway. I fell to my knees with  Zarfira still in her hands. I began crying and put my forehead against hers. Everything went dark then. Nothing everything was blank.

I suddenly awoke in a familiar room chained to the wall. I realized I was back home and I began shaking and crying. "Oh kalluto you have been away for way to long for you to start feeling emotional like you are now." I heard illumi say. I looked around and saw illumi standing beside me with a grin. "I told you I would kill her. You should have taken it seriously kall"

I knew there was no point in fighting anymore. I knew illumi would not let me go. I looked down at the floor and all emotion I had left was gone. I am just emotionless. But what's so wrong with being emotionless you can't feel pain you can't feel sadness or anger maybe what I was looking for was that constant state of nothingness. "Illumi I am so sorry I love you big brother." Was what I said and I actually meant that I loved him.

I was foolish to try to make friends. Foolish to think that anyone other than the other members of my family care, love and accept me.  "Oh wonderful kal I love you to. Now let's go see mom and dad." Illumi said happily. I nodded and he unchained me from the wall and began walking with me and I just continued looking down. We arrived to were mother was and she told me that no one other than the family can ever love me and I nodded. "I love you guys to i won't leave again....."