secrets !﹒⪩⪨﹒dkbk

𝟭𝟴 : not very confident.

as the days went on, both katsuki and izuku were inseparable without raising the suspicion of the university.

"kacchan?" izuku looked up from his phone to gaze at the blond lying comfortably on his lap. katsuki slowly looked up, his gaze was soft, only ever soft around izuku. "hm?" he hummed.

"why do you think himiko attempted to get in the way of us? of all people.. as if there aren't other... secret relationships on campus." izuku questioned, his tone slowly becoming more and more serious as he went.

katsuki shifted before eventually sitting up on izuku's lap, "well first of all, don't call us secret or even put us in that category because it sounds.. weird." katsuki said, flicking izuku's forehead as if he were flicking some sense into izuku.

"ow, sorry kacchan." izuku whined, rubbing the spot that katsuki had just flicked. katsuki grunted, "second, she's been there as long as i have. in her first year, she nearly got expelled because she had exposed a relationship.. like ours. though she'd gotten really fucking popular off of that shit and she loves attention." he shrugged.

"so maybe she wanted to do the same for us. i mean, she knows what we are now." katsuki finished, shrugging. izuku seemed to have furrowed his eyebrows at that.

"wait.. what are we?" izuku asked excruciatingly slow, tilting his head.

the air suddenly felt thick around them both and katsuki's throat felt a bit dry. surely they weren't just fuck-buddies. no, izuku provided more than that and katsuki felt more than that.

though, they never went as far as speaking out loud about how they felt for each other. "i-i don't know.." katsuki coughed out.

izuku couldn't fight the frown that pulled at his lips at katsuki's response. the blond was somehow making him feel like a scared teenager again.

"how do you feel about me?" izuku asked, his voice breathy and unsure. katsuki chewed his bottom lip softly, nervous to say anything.

"how do you feel about me?" katsuki replied, his palms growing sweaty at this, obviously scared of what to say.

izuku scoffed, rolling his eyes playfully. "how about we say it at the same time? if we say different things... let's not let that change anything about us.. okay?" he suggested.

katsuki nodded, almost eager. they both knew this was risky. though they weren't going to lie, they just couldn't lie to each other.

"alright, one," izuku sighed.

"two," katsuki nodded.

"three.."

"..love you"
"..think i love you."

katsuki gasped, backing away slightly due to not knowing how to react to izuku's response. was he confident in loving him? did this mean that izuku was sure of himself when he spoke his feelings

did this mean katsuki said the wrong thing?

"you.. think you love me?" izuku asked, his voice cracking only the very slightest. "no! i-i do... i... i love you, izuku." katsuki gasped, hands trembling as he held onto izuku.

truly, katsuki was unsure of his feelings. he always has been. the only feeling he was familiar with was anger and aggression. though, when it came down to being with izuku, he felt soft and warm. he didn't swear as much, nor did he yell as much. izuku made him feel emotions that were so foreign, so confusing.

"i just don't feel.. confident." katsuki mumbled. he was sort of envious of izuku, who seemed so sure about himself.. and his feelings.

"confident in what?" izuku said. he knew that katsuki was being genuine right now. though, he couldn't fight the pang of sadness that struck his heart at katsuki's words.

katsuki shook his head, mumbling curses as he grew more confused. "i- just.. everything, okay?! i don't understand this, i don't know how i feel. i find it hard to understand if i love you.. or just the things you do." he explained, his hands reaching up to tug at his hair out of annoyance.

izuku felt his heart sink the slightest bit at that. he didn't quite know what to say and this obviously was noticed by katsuki.

"fuck.. fuck, i'm sorry. i just don't know, okay? yet you make me feel so.. warm. my heart races and my stomach flutters. when you take care of me and say such soothing things to me.. my heart feels like it going to explode." he sighed, feeling slightly refreshed after letting out his feelings.

"katsuki," izuku said, tilting katsuki's head back up to meet his gaze, deep and serious. "katsuki, i think you know how you feel."

katsuki swallowed thickly. was izuku telling him the truth? did katsuki really know how he felt? or was he trying to convince himself that he knew?

"just stop. stop questioning yourself, kacchan. whatever it is that's telling you that what you feel is incorrect, let it go." izuku spoke. katsuki looked up at him, his eyes seemingly sparkling as he did so.

"but.. what if it's myself that's making me feel like that.. what do i do then?" katsuki breathed, unable to break away from izuku's gaze.

izuku's lips quirked into a soft smile, "then allow me to be the one to make you let go."

katsuki felt that same teasing fluttering in his stomach once again. "do you mean.."

"will you go out on a date with me, love?" izuku asked softly. katsuki shivered with delight at hearing izuku call him 'love'. he nodded.

"i would.. i would love that." katsuki smiled softly, feeling a bit embarrassed as he was so very whipped by izuku's dorky flirting.

and with that, their lips met, sweet and innocent. not a hint of lust or greed.

only love.