you said i was the only one who's ever loved you.
so why did i deserve what you did to me?
i envy her, she won't have to deal with what i dealt.
guess this time, i was the test subject.
one day, i hope i understand why you did that.
don't worry either, the next guy i love won't go through the same thing you did. i'm going to take the time to heal.
make sure this never happens again.
and even if it does, i'll handle it more gracefully.
i never want to feel like this again.
i'm tired of fixing people.
