i want to say that im happy you found someone so fast because you seemed so excited when you did
you might as well tell me that she's the real girl of your dreams. take back what you told me.
i already know that the ship has sailed between you two & i knew even before you told me.
you already know your answer. i'm out of the equation. and even then, i'm not going to let you have to make a choice. nor do i deserve to feel like an option. you already chose her. in a matter of hours or days, you'll confirm what you're feeling for her.
i'm hurt and disappointed but again, not at you.
you replaced me so fast. how is that not going to hurt?
3 years of knowing each other.
10 months of us officially dating.
within a span of a week, i was replaced.
you even asked what i thought of her. "she's pretty", that's what i told you. she's exactly what you want and need. is that what you wanted to hear? why would you ask that? fuck sake.
i want to be happy for you as your 'bestfriend'.
and i know i forgot to be your friend.
but you forgot that we were once in love too.
you were so happy to tell me that you found someone. god, you don't know how much i want to be happy for you.
but i'm not.
you have the audacity to tell me that i need to heal. you don't have the right to tell me that. and, i am trying to heal first. what about you?
nonetheless, i would never hate on her because she's done nothing wrong to me. sabotaging anything is pointless, what am i going to gain? nothing. and i know that she will take care of you & make you happy.
eventually, i will personally remove myself from your life because i don't want her to experience what i've felt before.
i hope she treats you kindly. i genuinely wish you both well.
