404- peter parker

part 29

2 hours later peters pov

tony drives me to therapy, the car rides mainly silent. we get there check in and wait for my therapist. after around 15 minutes i get called back. his rooms on the 6th floor so we go up.
"hey peter" my therapist says
"hey" i say
i sit down and so does he.
"anything happen this past week you wanna talk about" he says
"ummm i got into a fight, me and my girlfriend almost split but not much else happened" i say
"how are you doing mentally?" he asks
"you know that's a great view" i say pointing out his window
"peter. answer the question" he says
"worse then the last visit" i say
"that's not good peter" he says
"yeah, there is something i should tell you" i say
he sits up
"i hear these voices all the time and there not mine" i say
"voices?! what kind of voices?" he asks
"bad ones, ones that tell me to do bad things to the people i'm close with and love" i say
"what do they say?" he asks
i shake my head, i start to tear up
"i'm going insane and i can't do this" i say pulling at my hair down
"peter talk to me" he says
"i can hear and see things that aren't real and so things out to get me but i don't know what" i say
this isn't the worse freak out  i've had in my therapist's office but it was still a bad one.
"peter listen to me" he says
i don't say anything
"your safe nothings out to get you... what do you see?" he asks
"i see aunt may, and she talks to me and tells me that i'm not safe and that something coming after me and i don't know what that thing is and i'm always afraid and worried- i can't do thing " i say
"peter nothing is coming ok, you are safe. what ever she said isn't true and you can do thing... does anyone know about these delusions you've been having?" he asks
i shake my head no
"maybe you should tell tony or y/n" he says
"no he'll put me in an insane asylum or mental institution and i don't wanna go there" i say
"peter just tell tony so he can keep you safe" he says
"can you tell him?" i ask
"yeah" he says
"it's just sometimes i feel like i have no control over my self and i do things with out realize it" i say
"like what what do you do?" he asks
"i almost really hurt or killed my girlfriend and i didn't even realize it" i say
"what did you do?" he asks
"we were just having.. you know-"
"sex" he says
"yeah anyways it was fine then i started to hurt her and i couldn't stop. i choke her to the point she couldn't talk or really breath and i was going was to roughy and shit for anyone to enjoy what was going on then it was like a switch got flipped back on and i got off of her and i threw up" i say
my therapist looks at me for a second.
"peter i've never had a patient like you, that's not a bad thing but i'm really trying to fingers out what i can do to help you" he says
"maybe i need to go into a mental institution or insane asylum because i'm not sane and it's getting worse" i say
"we will try other things first" he says
"i'm so tired after it happens, like i can't function, i used all of my energy on that" i say
"peter we will help you" he says
i nod.
we finish my therapy session and i wait in the waiting room while they talk. i look to my right and see aunt may.
"no" i say
"peter you have to run, he's coming right now... run peter! run!" she says
"who's he" i ask
"i don't have time you have to run" she says
"tell me" i say
"run peter, run" she says
then tony comes out off the office.
"can we go.... now please" i say
"ok i wanna talk to you" he says
"yeah and i want to get out of here" i say
i look around.
"peter what are you looking for?" he asks
"nothing let's go" i say
"ok" tony says
we walk out to the car and start to drive back to the tower.
"so your therapist told me about these voices and delusions you have... and that you don't feel like your in control of you body sometimes" he says
"yeah" i say
"you could have told me-"
"i thought you were gonna put me into a mental institution or something" i say
"no... he did tell me about the incident with your girlfriend tho" tony say
"fuck" i say
"i hate that you guys do that i got over it kinda, i'm not mad... i just think for he safety you should keep your distance for a while" he says
"ok" i say
"i think we should move my room away from her then" i say
"we can move your room to a different one". he says
i nod. we get to the tower and i avoid y/n and i go to the top of the tower. i don't sit on the edge, i lay down on the concrete floor and look at the sky. i'm kinda hidden so you can't find me unless you look.
"peter?" i hear y/n say
i don't respond hoping she will leave
"peter i know your up here you come up here everyday after your therapy, i just wanna talk" she says
"ok then talk" i say not moving from my position
"why are they moving your rooming?" she asks
"because i- i don't know" i say
"peter are you mad at me?" she asks
"no" i say
"then what's wrong?" she asks
"we need to break up for your safety" i say
"what?" she says
"i'm sorry but it's over y/n" i say with tears in my eyes.
"no... no it can't be" she says
"it's is now go do you homework or something" i say
she leaves and i stay there, sad and alone now.