Stefanielle Quarantined

My uterus or me?

Stefania's POV:

It's the first day when Grey's and Station19 are back. We filmed hard and now I'm in Danielle's arms in our couch and we are going to watch the premier together. Danielle is taking pictures of our new doggie, Ford. He is so cute. I knew how much she wanted another dog so I gave her one as a birthday present. She was so happy about it it made me cry. She bought me a ring for the ,,proposal" or I don't know if I'm supposed to call that little promise that we made for eachother, but it fixed our problems for sure. Now she knows that I'll stay with her but the thing is that I didn't need a ring for that, because I wouldn't leave her for anything. ,,Baby...are you okay" she asked me as she touched my face. I zoned out that's why she asked that. ,,Hmm? Oh yeah I'm fine!" I said as I shook my head. ,,Are you sure? You seemed kinda sad. Everything's alright?" she frowned. ,,Sí Bambina. Everything is fine! I'm pretty excited about us back on the screen." I said as I held her hand. She kissed the top of my head as she pulled me closer to her. My head was on her chest. ,,Me too but we will be fenomenal, trust me!" she said as she stroked my back. 

Few minutes later it finally started. Danielle cheered and it made me smile like an idiot. Everytime I look at her time stops. I watched as her pearl white teeth showed while she giggled it also made her big blue eyes become smaller but it doesn't mean it's not as bright as usual. Her golden hair was in a ponytail which highlighted her sharp jawline, it makes my jaw drop everytime I see it. She realized that I'm staring at her. ,,Hey, my love. We are on the screen, so stop staring at me! Look at the TV!" she ordered with a smirk. ,,But the TV is not as mesmerizing as you!" I said as I licked my lips. ,,Then look at me on the TV!" she said again but now she hugged my shoulder. We started watching the show. It was a sex scene between us popping up and we both smirked. While we were watching us on the screen she didn't stop stroking my arm and she gave little kisses at my face. It made my heart melt. 

Danielle's POV:

When the episode was over Stefania was crying. ,,Hey, hey...darling, what's wrong?" I asked as I took her face in my hands. ,,Nothing it's just...whatever." she said as she looked away. I was the one who always looked away when someone bothered me and I didn't want to talk about it but I tried to change it because it made our relationship harder so now I'm trying to tell Stefania everything that makes me mad or sad, that is why I don't get it why she does this. It makes me anxious. ,,Baby, please. Tell me!" I asked her again as I held her hand. She shook her head and pressed her lips together as a tear rolled down on her cheek. ,,It was a sad episode but you know it will get better. We did not break up or anything. Maya doesn't want kids but Carina does but they will be fine! They love eachother. Don't be sad about it!" I said as I stroked her back. ,,It's not that! I know that they will be fine...it's just- complicated." she said as she looked into my eyes. ,,You can tell me anything!" I smiled. She sighed. ,,This topic is hard for me. I've never told anyone this before." she said. ,,What do you mean? You don't want kids?" I frowned. ,,Oh if you'd know!" she rolled her eyes and it filled with tears again. ,,Well, tell me!" I said.

,,You know that I was married before we met. It was a long relationship. We were together for 13 years and when we decided to have kids it just didn't work out. So I went to a doctor to see if everything's fine and it turned out that my uterus is hostile..." she said as she bursted out in tears. It broke my heart. ,,What does that mean?" I asked as I wiped a tear off of her face. ,,We tried for many years to have kids with doctors' help and it just didn't happen. So my embryologist told me that I could never have kids. And that was the reason we divorced. We had many fights about this. He wanted to have children and I could not give it to him so he left me. And-" she stopped to take a deep breath. ,,And I'm afraid that you are gonna leave me too." she said with tears in her eyes and on her face. I couldn't believe my ears. ,,Stefania...how can you assume that I'd leave you because of that? I want to have kids yes, but I want to live my life with you more! And if you don't want to try to have children anymore I totally get it and I support you no matter what! I love YOU not your uterus!" I said as I hugged her tight. ,,Thank you." she said as she sniffed. ,,You don't have to thank me this! Now come here let's watch some cartoons!" I said. ,,I love you." she whispered. ,,I love you more, my heart!" I whispered back to her and turned on some cartoon.

RP: Hey guys! Ugh school is still killing me. I have no free time. I'm writing this in my first free hours in weeks. I don't know when can I write another chapter but I'm trying my best. Until then, be safe!

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