JAY | Phoenix's Death ✓

death of one's self.

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If you come across people who genuinely love and accept you, please never ever leave them.

Never take them for granted.

I had "friends" leave me without an explanation, throwing their proclaimed assurance that I wasn't the problem.

I really wasn't, it was them.

Although I tried my best to work it out with them, they'd avoid me or come up with excuses that it wasn't a good time.

The more they said that, the more I didn't understand. I ended up chasing for an explanation, I started throwing away my pride.

I pushed away the only two people who genuinely cared about me.

I was chasing after people who made me think that there was something wrong with me- after people who pointed out my every flaw behind my back.

Foolish me decided to give in; foolish me discarded the old me.

That was the trigger to my misery.

I changed for people just so I could be good enough to meet their standards.

"The fire in you is gone Jay.
All I see is bruised confidence and a fake smile. What happened to you?"

Nothing, just the fact that I
figuratively killed myself.