We were still on the road. Nobody had talked for 6 hours. We just listened to punk rock and stayed in silence. I could still feel Cal staring at me. The feeling I've had for the past two hours. When I looked over, his face was pale and had tear stains on his cheeks from crying. His eyes were ref and puffy and it looked like he just got a serious case of pink eye. I tried to talk.to him but he just interuppted. "Look-" "No. Hope. You need to stop. Tour hurting me so bad and I don't want to know that you're in pain." By that time everybody was staring, exepts Ash, of course, because she was driving. "CALUM THIS IS LIKE SMOKING! I CANT JUST STOP I HAVE QN ADDICTION TO SELF HARM AND DEPRESSION OKAY? I ATTEMPTED SUICIDE 4 TIMES ALREADY. LEAVE ME ALONE!!!" I turned around and cried myself into a deep sleep. Hoping something good would happen. But my nightmares just cane again.
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There I was, in the middle of nowhere. My mother was being me trying to beat me. I was sprinting. But she was too fast for me. She came up, threw me to the ground, repeatedly kicking me in my ribs, face, just everywhere. Sh wouldn't stop. I tried to run bit I couldn't, so I just lay there, suffering through this pain. *end nightmare* I woke up to Cal shaking me. "Were here. Were at the lake. Come on" with that he ran off, as I didn't want to move. He seemed so happy. I couldn't hold it all in. I bursted out crying and changed into my swimsuit. But when I got out of the car I first saw skie. I knew it was her and started to run her way. But I stopped in my tracks as I saw Calum snogging with her. He opened his eyes, saw me, and tried to catch me, but I ran into Ashton's arms, as he cradles me and let me cry into his shirt. "Him and Skie, they were, they were snoghing each others faces off. Ashton. I thought I loved Calum. Irhought he liked me back. Apparently I was wrong." "Shh. It'll be okay. I'm gonna go knock some sense into that dick. Go get Michael and talk to him for a while. Okay?" "Alright. Thanks ash. You're the best." "I know" us all he said before he stormed off clenching his fists then screaming at Calum. Skis came up to me and said sorry but I couldn't talk to her right now. But I did anyway. "You know. Back before I left with teg boys you wouldn't dare kiss anyone. But I see you've changed." Look Hope-" was all she could say before another band decided to join in on the action.
