Hope's P.O.V.
They won't leave. Everyday they tell me to go to the balcony and jump. I wish they would jump for me. Oh, I guess I should catch you up. We left Sydney (that was our last stop on the tour that we started) and we were off to Japan. I was never fond of flying, and every time we fly I always have really bad panic attacks. I always suck it up and move on though, I always have to fight through it. But when we went to Japan, my shadows, I call them Romulus and Remus (see what I did there? Hehe.) They always fight each other and then they seem like they want to kill me. The boys noticed that I was being really distant lately, and they have tried to get me to tell them what was wrong, but I always tell them that I am okay. That I have always been okay. They tell me okay, that someday I'll open up to them. But I once overheard in the back of the tourbus, Ashton talking to Calum about me. "She doesn't have problems Ash!" Calum said anger clear in his voice. "Cal, she won't tell us anything, she has been so secretive lately, there is obviously something wrong!!"he said, sounding upset. "Ashton. I love this girl. She is my world and I couldn't ask for anyone else to stare at every time she is at one of our concerts. I love her with everything I have." I was crying. He loves me. They must have heard me weeping because Calum came out and held me tight. He didn't let go, he wouldn't let go. As he put me in his lap, he said "what's wrong babe?" All I could say through my tears were "I love you too." He smiled. He knew exactly what had happened. We love each other. Its didn't end. The love doesn't end.
