Unsung cries Hopeful eyes

chapter 17

"What happened sidharth why are you behaving awkwardly, is there anything I could do?" Asked his mother being concerned sensing a difference in his behavior

Sidharth who was lost in his thought came out of his trance

Mom where is dadi? won't she have breakfast? Asked sidharth moving his eyes everywhere

"Here I am" came a familiar voice from the main entrance, make sidharth and his mom turned in that direction

Sidharth calmed down when his eyes caught the sigh he was dying to have since morning

Sidharth's pov

I came out of my thinking when mom said something, I didn't get what she said as my mind was occupied with her thought, I don't know what the hell is happening with my heart, this little innocent face girl is playing with my mind, damnn!! I need to make distance from her,
hell!! How can I, every time I try to stay away from her I go even close to her, but yesterday's what happened between us was serene, that feeling was just so beautiful it felt so damn right, but what she did was unexpected, how could she, let me just find her, I won't leave her for what she did
you just come duckling, how long and how far will you run away from me 
But where the hell has she gone, I haven't seen her since morning
What is her problem

I couldn't hold for more and asked mom about dadi's whereabout may be dadi will help me locate her

"Mom! Where is dadi" I asked being impatient before she said something

"Here I am" dadi's voice reached my ear, I looked in her direction and
There she is flaunting in a black knee-length frock with fitted trousers while a red dupatta was magnificently draped around her complimenting her fairy-like fair complexion
Her face is void of that artificial makeup, naturally rosy lips with pink hue of cheeks
Such a beauty she is
Maybe I am attracted to her tempting beauty and charm

Our eyes met making my heart pump hard against my chest, I kept looking into her innocent captivating eyes, her eyes held power to spellbound anybody she wants, her eyes  scream pain and sadness

But why?? I didn't do that much wrong

our eye contact broke when she delicately lowered her captivating orbs
Damn!! Why does she always have to break eye contact?
wait! was she with dadi

Where were you? Sidharth asked with a poker face in a rough tone, frowning at them

"I took her to a neighbor house" dadi responded adjusting on the sofa

Sidharth frowned deepened as he asked

"This time??? isn't too early to bestow your neighbor with your lovely presence" sidharth passed a sarcastic remark

"Zain you remember our neighbor, your childhood friend his mother passed away at midnight, I was going so I took shehnaaz along with me" dadi uttered with sadness

Inalilahey was inailahey rajion ( we belong to God and to him, we shall return ) his mother recited dua when she heard of the demise

Sidharth remained still without exhibiting an ounce of sympathy, rather made a disinterested face

"You both should also go to pay your condolence to him" dadi continued while looking at sidharth and his mother

"I can't, I have a busy schedule" sidharth spoke coldly making shehnaaz look in his direction

"And make sure you won't take her at his home" sidharth said sternly while eyeing shehnaaz

Dadi gave confused look to sidharth
'Sidharth he is your best friend" his mother uttered

"was!! He was, not anymore" sidharth replied being irritated

"Sidharth it's been long," his mom tried to convince him by putting her hand on his shoulder

Shehnaaz kept looking at them being perplexed as she didn't get anything they are talking about

Shehnaaz felt unwanted and out of their family talk so she moved to their room

She was making the bed and setting the things when he barged into the room she froze as she felt his presence she thought he must have left for office

She moved to leave the room when she felt a tight grip on her arm

Sidharth gripped her arm and swiftly turned her around 

"Next time you better not go to his house "  sidharth warned her in a hoarse voice

She nodded and tried to remove his grip from her arms

"What is your problem?" Sidharth asked being irritated by her ignorance and avoiding

"Nothing let me go" she wiggled at his arm

He put his hand on her waist and pulled her close to him

"Then why are you running away from me?" He asked softly by lifting her face from her chin so that her soft eyes could meet his hard one

"Speak," he said a little rudely while caressing her smooth rosy cheeks which got red due to their proximity

"Sc....ar.ed  I am afraid of you" she shuddered in his firm hold

"You proved it yesterday night, with your tight slap, you are indeed very afraid of me" sidharth teased her by making faces

Flashback

Sidharth got angry from her push and forcibly kissed her
Shehnaaz eyes widened her heart stopped beating when his lips touched her,  memories of the past hit her brain, and without a second she pushed him and slapped him hard on his face

And ran from there leaving confused and drunk sid behind

"You tried to molest me, I don't feel safe in your presence" she blurted out her feelings

Sidharth expression changed hurt was evident in his eyes and face
his grip around her waist loosened and he went from there

Sidharth pov

The mention of that zain made me pissed nobody knows his real face, I had such people who do stuff in the name of religion
Disgusting man

Ahhh!!
Why dadi take her to his home

I did make my mind to talk to her

But what she said just ache my heart
She doesn't feel safe with me?

I know I went over the board and I am not justifying that, I am just trying to make our marriage work
I know she being shy and docile won't make a move, so I tried to talk to her but what I got in return accusation

She said she don't feel safe in my presence
Ahhhh!!

Fine, you don't want to work it out, I won't force you, you live your life and will live mine

I came out of my pool of thoughts with the ringing of the phone

Sidharth received the call
Hello! Yes sidharth is speaking his blood got cold his face turned pale

How did it happen?  He managed to speak with his dry throat