Childhood Friends

Chapter 5

The cold Seattle rain pours down on me, as I walk down the streets, trying to find a hotel to stay at.
I shouldn't have left without taking a jacket and an umbrella with me. I really regret that.
As I walk down the streets, I think about everything that happened.
I should be happy to have him in my life again, but I'm not. He was the reason why I didn't have any friends. I wasn't able to trust anyone. He didn't even say goodbye. He broke me.
And now he's back again. Did he seriously think I'd forgive him that easily? That I'd hug him and tell him how much I missed him? No way!
The people who walk past me stare at me because I'm talking to myself. I always do that when I'm angry or frustrated.
„Y/N"
„Y/N"
„Y/N"
I finally realize that someone is calling my name. I was just too lost in my thoughts and didn't pay attention to it, I guess.
I stop walking and look to my left, where Jimmy is driving next to me in is red Ferrari GTB 275.
„ What the fuck do you want?"
He parks his car and gets out. He walks up to me and stands in front of me.
„ Look I know that's a bit overwhelming for you but I think you're overreacting. I mean shouldn't you be happy, that I'm in your life again ?"
I sarcastically laugh and look away for a second.
„ You really expect me to be the happiest girl in the world right now, don't you? Well guess what I'm not! You just left me. You said nothing! You don't know how I've been feeling because you never cared to ask and just stopped writing me!" I scream at him and start to cry. I turn around so he doesn't see me crying.
He just stays silent. I turn around again and look in his face.
„ Now you're silent. Don't know what to say? Well I'm gonna leave you now. I'll stay somewhere else tonight. I'll be at the hotel tomorrow to pick my stuff up. Goodbye. I walk away and let him stand in the rain alone. He deserves it.
I walk into the next bar and order me some Jack Daniels. I really need that now.
First it was only one glass, then 2 then three and so on. I'm getting really fast really drunk.
After some time the barkeeper kicks me out and I'm standing in the rain again. It's around 3 am now. I sit down on the ground and lean against a wall.
I watch the cars drive by and wonder, where they are driving to. Right now, there's no car driving by, so I can see the buildings on the other side of the street. On the building right in front of me, is hanging a poster of the Zeppelin show, with Jimmy on it. Even here I have to see him.
I let out a frustrated scream and put my head on my knees. That's when I start to sleep in.

I wake up because of someone shaking me.
„Stop it. I'm fine and not homeless. I don't need your help." I groan.
„ Well you pretty much look like it but we have to be at the airport soon."
I look up and see golden locks looking down on me.
„ God Robert you have so much hair, I can't even see you!"
He starts laughing and helps me up.
„Thanks Robert."
„No problem."
We both get on the limo which drives us to the airport, because the cars of the boys are already on their way to the next city: Portland.
It's completely silent in the limo. I'm sitting next to Jimmy, and to be honest, I'd rather walk than sitting next to him. But I can't change it now.
Everybody looks at Jimmy and me. It makes me quite uncomfortable.
„Sooo Y/N why didn't you sleep at the hotel?" John asks.
Jimmy looks up and gives him a death stare. If looks could kill, he'd be dead.
„Well Jimmy told me about that little secret you bastards were keeping. I decided I don't want to see any of you so I ran away. Then I got drunk and wasn't able to walk so I slept on the street." I say angrily.
„Well aren't you happy about it?" John asks.
„Shut it John." Bonzo whispers and punches him.
„No obviously not." I say.
It's awkwardly silent now.
I just want to get out of here.

We board our private plane and I put my stuff in my cabin. I lay down on my bed and just stare at the ceiling. The memories of me and Jimmy start to play in my head. I remember the one time we played in front of our school and Jimmy's guitar string broke. He was so embarrassed.
I got interrupted by a knock at my door.
„ Shit wait a second."
I get up and fix my makeup because I just started crying.
I open the door and look at Jimmy.
„No I don't want to talk." I say and shut the door.
„Oh come on Y/N we can't just ignore each other. We'll have to see each other for the next 6 weeks." He says slightly annoyed.
„No thank you Jimmy, I can ignore you for the next 6 weeks." I reply.
„You're still as stubborn as you used to be." He says and chuckles.
„This won't work on me. Just go away." I say annoyed.
„Give me 5 minutes. Then I'll go away."
I sigh and open the door.
„5 Minutes. Not a single second more."
He sits down on my bed and I sit next to him.
„Look Y/N I'm really sorry for what happened but I had no other choice. My dad got thi-"
„You had no other choice?! You're joking right? You didn't even tell me that you're leaving. You didn't say goodbye. You just stopped writing to me. You had a choice!"
„Y/N I didn't have a choice! You wouldn't understand!" He starts screaming.
„Then explain it to me!" I yell back.
„I didn't want to make this goodbye even harder. Oh my god Y/N you really don't get it?! I WAS IN LOVE WITH YOU OKAY! I didn't want to loose you. I didn't tell you because it would've changed things! I stopped writing to you because it was too hard. All I've ever wanted was to hold you on my arms. It just got too hard and I decided to forget you. But guess what: I couldn't!" He yells while tears stream down his face.
I just sit there in complete shock.
He can't be serious right?! He's just making something up so I forgive him.
But what if he isn't?
„You're joking right?!" I ask.
„Do I look like I'm joking?" He asks and laughs sarcastically.
„You could've said something. I would've been prepared. You don't know what I went through!" I say and start crying.
„And now it's about you again. Y/N you're not the only one who was having a rough time!" He yells.
„Wow. Thank you." I say and walk out of the room.
„What are you guys doing in front of my room?!" I say and wipe away my tears.
„Uhm nothing." Robert says.
„You heard the whole conversation right?" I ask.
„We could hear you screaming at the other side of the plane." Bonzo says.
„Oh wow." I say and run to the bathroom, where I lock the door.
I just need time to process all the things that happened.