I am an angel.
An angel with no wings nor audacity to fly.
An angel that is locked out of heaven.
An angel that is stuck in the deepest part of hell.
An angel, treated like a slave, caged like a bird.
One wrong move in exchange for one life.
This day adds up to the worst days of my whole journey towards the place I call heaven.
I am getting to that point where I am tired to show my emotions.
I feel like a cold-blooded who despised being in such situation. Anyone would.
Today, I was trained yet again. For my safety, they say.
I still feel weak. Does that give me safety? No, it is the other way around. Training is for the strong, for those who want to be strong. I am part of the second option but I seem to not adapt anything. Maybe because I need to work on something else first.
I am powerless. Literally and not literally.
Is it even safe to say that this place is too dangerous for me or for a normal person?
It was my first time in holding such tools and weapons I forgot the names of. When I was younger, I always thought that it looks and is cool. Especially an archer. I have dreamed of being Katniss Everdeen once. Now, it is overall traumatic.
What do you feel if you killed a person?
My body starts to quake just by thinking. I can never try such thing. Whether they force me or not, I will choose to commit suicide instead. I am a sinful person but I am not a murderer. I can live a life feeling suffocated but never can live a life feeling ashamed, guilty, and with the conscience destroying me.
I can't.
Most people want to live their lives and that shows in unexpected events or supernatural ones. Shall I be the same? It will be different than getting killed slowly. Goosebumps are getting me as I write this one. I do not want my flesh to be eaten by the dead. I cannot watch a single drop of blood; What more if I will feel it thoroughly and feel my bones getting exposed to air?
Maybe I do want to live after all.
Not just in the mansion of Satan.
They can control me all they want but I will never let myself hurt anyone.
What I experienced today, I wanted it to stop before it turned worse, whereas living things or living people are involved.
I cannot continue it.
I have never t...
A flashing light in my peripheral vision caused my head to snap on the direction of the window panes. The satellite is wide awake already. Then, I heard my heart hammering in my chest as the sound of thunder stung my ears. I despise loud sound. It brings me a sense of consternation. Eyes stuck on the transparent glass, it was not that difficult to spot the droplets of liquid that is multiplying on top of it.
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Hellish Love
Fanfiction"We are born to be alone, but we're still looking for love" - Lovesick Girls, BLACKPINK A life is full of rocks, sometimes different from others and sometimes similar to others. Sometimes, rocks actually pull something together. Rocks build a wall...
