Hellish Love

CHAPTER 1: [2]

"Those are a billion of stars!"

"Is that.. a tree in real life? It's so large"

"I love the stars, they twinkle"

"Oh, my, god, I saw a firefly! Jisoo, I saw a firefly! Jackson!"

I cannot decipher what I am feeling; I have never felt this way before. Is this the sense of liveliness? Am I feeling alive? It is confusing, yet I pushed these thoughts away, as I enjoyed every little thing in my sight. The shadows, the darkness, the nightmares, it is not following me here. It actually allows me to be happy at this time. Lord, is this your way of giving me freedom? New life? New chapter, or new book, itself? I am loving it! I had littlest hopes of You hearing my prayers and it probably got annoying that You did grant my prayers for me to stop bothering You with the pond of wishes about going outside.

I felt as if I broke the chains that were holding me back from freedom.

The first minute we were out, it was really innovating and until now it is. I sensed how cold, yet fresh the air is at night; It was not raining anymore. I did not like the smell of rains but I did not care since I am not inside any residence. I immediately had a liking to the atmosphere outside a house. As the thick clouds move away, the more I notice the stars that are sparkling like Jisoo's eyes. Stars are my favorite. They do not let the moon be alone in the dark. They shine together as one.

Then, I saw the nature. Grasses and flowers amaze me that I would want to lay down if only I forget that it rained not long ago. Their colors, even at night, can be seen or it may only be because of the light coming from some tall metal, my first time seeing it since I have not yet encountered a picture with it before though I also see it in movies or series. These tall metals give light and are turned off during the day. Must be some sort of lamp, such as in my bedroom, that is supposedly made in this manner to light all spots of the streets. Observing the flowers, I would want to attempt and smell just one of them.

Upon a closer look, it took me a long moment to see small yellow light bulbs, only to realize that those are fireflies. At first, I thought that there were also small lamps, on the grass, like that tall steel. Next thing I knew, I was squealing my heart out to Jisoo then Jackson. As I walk with the them, from inside the large household to a while ago, it was too nerve-wracking, for my whole body, itself. Imagine being with two complete strangers who might possibly be dangerous. I did not trust them, but I was blinded by the urge and want to go outside and that made me go with them. Now, they really did let me stroll at some place I did not know, however, for sure it is not confined. I would want to think regarding it, later. I want to enjoy myself now that it is the very first time that my presence reached somewhere not near to devils.

Or so I thought.

Both Jisoo and Jackson are attractive, deadly attractive. Looks may be deceiving yet at the same time, there is something inside that tells me to trust them. But I may not. I cannot do it yet, at least. It brings me anxiety to even ask myself if I shall do it since it reminds me of what happened in the past. And then, every event now seemed to be happening so fast. From the paradise dream, to waking up in the same room, tried to escape but is caught by Jisoo, met Jackson as well, then we are all out in the middle of the night and in the middle of nowhere. Or that is what it is, for me, but not for the two of them. They appear to know this place very well, considering that they are very aware of where to go.

With the long walk, that did not seem long to me, I got to know them. Not that much but sure enough that they are not fake. Not fake as in this is the reality and not fake as in knowing that they are sincere with everything they show. They love to bicker as if they are kids. Bet, they were bickering and it is me who interfered with my squeals, but just like me they have their own secrets. All of us have our own secrets. The mouth of mine turned into an oval shape as a gasp left my mouth. More fireflies! My brain got a pond of thoughts, saying that I should go then find even more, get them fly, by running my arms on the field softly.