AFFAIR FROM HEART

# Say that I'm a fucking slut who does everything

"Don't get diplomatic with me," I snapped at her instantly, making her raise her eyebrows even more.

"You think Jungkook really abuses me? Jeon Jungkook? Abuses? Me?"

"Yes," Felix answered on her behalf, making my blood boil in anger.

"Don't you see it Y/n? You give everything to that asshole and all you get is a bed in the ICU."

"This is insane!" I started to cry, hating myself for it.

"Mom, mom, please tell me you don't believe this crap! Jungkook doesn't abuse me! He can never do that! Why are you guys so hell bent on making him look like a monster?! He's just a boy!"

I fell down to my knees, clutching my chest as I cried my heart out. The pain was back, Oh, it was back so soon. Why couldn't it just go away? And since when did I become so weak? Why has love made me so weak?

"Y/n!" Mom was right next to me, helping me sit up. I pushed her, crawling away from her. How could she? She was supposed to understand. She always does. How can she go so wrong this time?

"Y/n, relax, just–

"l could've run away, do you know that?" I screamed my lungs out.

Behind me, Jin held me straight. "You have no right to out any restrictions on me! I'm an adult and I could have easily gone to Jungkook but I didn't! I didn't because I couldn't hurt you that way! I could understand what you–

"Jungkook is not the guy I thought he was," Mom cut me off, her own eyes shining with tears. "l don't trust him, not anymore. He's made you lie to me about him every time. I can't have my daughter love someone—"

"What you want doesn't matter!" I shouted at my mother in atone I had never before.

"I love him, I love him, I LOVE HIM! You have humiliated me by even thinking that he could abuse me in any way!"

"Abuse isn't always physical, Y/n." Mom tried to convince me but I, I couldn't handle it anymore

"Stop!" I got to my feet, stepping away from everyone in the room. Their eyes followed me, all kinds of emotions mixed in them.

"l trusted you so much, Mom. I trusted you to understand, sooner or later. But now I see that you aren't going to! You've made up your mind!"

Jin tried to say something, but I glared at him to stop. I looked back at Mom and Felix.

"Well I've made up my mind too. I'm going to see Jungkook. I don't give a flying fuck if you agree with my decision or no. Not anymore. I'm out of here."

I rushed outside before more tears escaped, grabbing my coat and shoes on the way. I'd expected Jin to follow, of course. But to my surprise and irritation, Felix beat him to it.

"How do you know he loves you?" I kept my back to Felix, putting on my shoes. It was freezing outside and I was sure I'm going to regret my decisions of getting out at this hour of the night.

"How do you know you like to take it up the ass and not ram it in some cunt?"

I was done with this bullshit. How dare he say something like that about Jungkook? He doesn't even know him. He has no right. Felix grabbed my arm, spinning me around to face him. Both of us were glaring daggers at each other.

"Don't be a fool, Y/n," he tried to warn me, his voice dipping down to a whisper.

"Jungkook's first solution to anything is violence. He's a fucking gangster for God's sake. Now you're shot, next thing you know, you'll be dead."