The Biersack-Purdy Rebel

Band Mates, Brothers and Out Casts

“Thank you guys! YOU’VE BEEN FUCKING AWESOME TONIGHT!” I yelled in to the microphone towards the cheering crowd. 90% of the covered in war paint, anxiously waiting for my brother’s band.
“I know who your all waiting for, so I won’t keep you waiting any longer, give it up for the best fucking people in this world....BLACK VEIL BRIDES” I screamed and the crowd erupted in cheers as the lights flashed. I ran off stage all hot and sweaty from my set just in time to wish the guys luck.
“Good luck to night Bro” I hugged Andy tight.
“Thanks, Sis, you were awesome” he replied hyping himself up, then running on stage. I stood watching, so proud of my brother. He’s worked so hard for his dream and its finally coming all true for him. I loved watching all his fans, screaming and shouting for him. I wanted that one day...

I walked to the back room where my band was and heard yelling.
“What’s going on?” I asked walking in. I looked at Jesse and Zack, they didn’t want to say anything and Ben hated being caught in the middle. It was Jacob, again.
“I was just saying tomorrow night maybe I should do vocals, you sounded a little flat” Jacob snared.
“Oh yeah and what you’re going to do all your solo’s too?”I asked.
“No, Alesha could play them, get a hot female guitarist, the guys would love it” he responded, referring to his girlfriend Alesha.
“You’re trying to kick me out of my own band? Fuck you Jacob, I never asked you to join anyway” I snapped.
“No you begged me” he laughed. I flipped him off then went and sat down at my desk grabbing my note book and pen. Ben would never get in the middle of a fight between me and Jacob, we are both his friends, Jesse and Zack were too scared of him so I was on my own. There was no way that I was going to go to my brother either.

“Hey Ariel, there finishing up” Zack called.
“Hang on” I smiled placing my pen down, running out of the room following him I ran to the side of the stage to watch the final song. Andy was trying not to get pulled in by the screaming fans as he reached out to them, we did not need another accident this early in the tour. Kids were screaming and crying watching the end of the show, it was very inspirational to them. They were their heroes.

Ashley picked me up as he came off stage.
“You’re all disgusting and sweaty Purdy” I laughed getting smeared paint all over my arms, face and clothes. I hi-5’ed Jinxx, Jake and CC coming off them hugged my brother. He looked at me and laughed, every single show Ashley managed to wipe all his war paint on me ruining all my clothes. From then on after my set I didn’t change my clothes until after they come on, preventing me from having to wash double the clothes.

The next few weeks were all like routine; arrive, sound check, show, meet & greet, back on the bus. I tried to attended every meet and greet for BVB as a lot of fans knew me and always asked where I was. Even now Zack and Jesse were getting a lot of fans asking for autographs and photos. Things were going great for this tour, Jacob and I weren’t fighting as much, although we stirred clear of one another as much as possible. He didn’t care too much about the songs we played either, as long as there was a good solo in there, he was happy. So whatever Ben, Zack, Jesse and I wrote; he was fine.

I woke up one morning feeling sick as hell. I stayed on the BVB bus that night as Alesha csme to visit and I was not going to stick around with her and Jacob. So without hesitation I elected to leave, much to his delight. I laid on the couch, just in my pyjama pants and sweat shirt.
“What’s wrong, little Biersack?” Ashley asked sitting next to me.
“I feel sick” I whined resting my head on his lap.
“I told you, you shouldn’t drink that much” he said.
“No that’s what I told you”
Last night we had a small party on the bus and the guys were drinking a bit. Jesse, Zack and I were still under-age, so we weren’t drinking. Ashley laughed and rubbed my back, while I closed my eyes and listened to the hum of the bus engine.

I was woken up by CC and Jake arguing about some food they wanted to bring back on the bus. Jake didn’t want some Indian food as it was going to smell out the whole bus, so CC had to eat it out side or not at all. I sat up looking out the window and we were at some truck stop in the middle of nowhere. I threw on some boots and walked outside, not caring what I looked like.
“Nice Pyjama’s” Jacob yelled.
“Fuck off” I yelled  back as Alesha giggled, clambering to his side.
“Want anything?” Jinxx asked as he walked to the food store.
“Nah, I’ll be there in a minute, just going in to the pharmacy” I yelled back. I walked in, luckily it was in the middle of nowhere and I didn’t have to put up with millions of people staring because of the way I was dressed. I walked down to where all the cold, cough and flu medications to grab something. Looking at all the bottles I just grabbed a strawberry flavoured one, they all looked the same.
“I better get some tampons” I mumbled to myself in my own thoughts.
“Wondered where you were” I heard a voice. Looking up I saw Ashley.
“Oh...yeah...Wa...” I mumbled then halted to a stop.
“FUCKKKK!” I yelled, startling him.
“woah, you okay?” he asked.
“Yeah...just gotta got to the toilet...I think I’m going to vomit” I said.
“Hey man, where’s the bathroom?” Ashley yelled to the assistant. He pointed to the back and I handed Ashley the cough mixture bottle. I ran down a different isle, hoping Ashley wouldn’t see me. Crouching down I edged my way to another isle. Looking up at the boxes, I tried to find the right one. 
I saw a shadow above me and looking up I saw the assistant.
“ehh” I laughed embarrassed.
“Your friend, just left” he said.
“Thanks....” I said grabbing the closest box to me I ran to the bathroom. I ripped it open trying not the freak out while reading the instructions.
“Pee on a stick...that’s not hard...” I mumbled. 

As I was waiting for the results, I felt my phone ringing.
Crap Andy was ringing me. I grabbed the ‘pee stick’ and box walking out of the bathroom. I gave him the box and put the stick in my pocket. Walking out side I saw all the guys wondering around looking for me.
“Where the fuck have you been?” Andy asked.
“I got stuck in the bathroom” I replied and jumped on the bus. I sat back on the couch, knowing it was going to be a little obvious if I went straight back to the bathroom.

The next few hours, were the worst of my life. I kept getting distracted and wasn’t listening to any of the conversations.
“Even when Ashley suggested playing strip poker I didn’t object to which I usually went off at him. Sitting next to me, Jinxx asked if something was wrong.
“Just feel sick” I replied with a weak smile
“I heard about the fight with Jacob” he said.
“He’s always pulling that shit, he doesn’t even care about the band, just wants the fame” I bit my lip.
“ Don’t worry if anything happens, we’ll find a place for you” he winked.
“I’m sure Andy will like his sister crashing the party all the time” I laughed.
Andy and Ash were writing some ideas down, I left Jinxx as he was talking to Jake and went to my bunk. I knew I could have at least a few minutes alone.

I sat on my bunk, contemplating on what was going to happen. ‘Don’t be stupid’ I said to myself, there’s no way it’s going to be positive. I can’t deal with that at the moment, I’m just stressed and caught the flu.  Talking myself up, I just ripped it out of my pocket, I looked down.
‘See positive nothing to worry.......’
“WHAT” I actually yelled. Hyperventilating I heard the guys running down the bus, grabbing my pillow just before the curtain flew open.
“Ariel are you okay?” Jinxx asked.
“Yeah...yeah...fine...spider” I muttered unable to put together any sentence. I looked over at Ashley who was concerned; as our eyes met I jumped up running to the bathroom, again. Slamming the door shut, I knelt down to the toilet and vomited anything I had left. I don’t know how long I stayed in there. I stood up looking in the mirror at myself and in the last hour of or so of finding out, I was pregnant, everything had changed. I looked older, well to me I did and looking down I placed a hand on my tummy. Something, somebody was in there.

“I need sleep” I muttered before washing my face again. Smiling I left the bathroom and went back to my bunk. Feeling around I felt for the test and had one last look at it, before hiding it inside my pillowcase.