The Biersack-Purdy Rebel

Leaving.

“Your leaving?! Why didn’t you tell me Ariel?!” Ashley gritted his teeth trying not to get aggressive.
“I can’t stay here Ash, this isn’t healthy living on the bus anymore and the fans are getting too crazy!” I replied. It kinda was Andy’s fault, The interviewer didn’t skip the ‘new little niece’ part and spread across YouTube videos, website and magazines was the fact Andy was going to be an uncle and they only way that would happen is me! Fans were screaming at me, taking photos, attacking my twitter and facebook pages, I was literally scared for her life. I knew I could handle it but if something happened to my little girl, I’d never forgive myself. The stress of living out here wasn’t good.
“And what I don’t get a say, I’m nothing?” Ashley yelled.
“Stop yelling at me!” I cried, screaming back at him. I was stuffing clothes in my bag, trying to make this as easy as possible.
“We’re going to have a child Ariel! This isn’t just about you anymore!” he said.
“ASHLEY! I need to leave, I can’t handle this anymore, your fans are crazy!”
“So now you attack our fans, Great Ariel, real great!” he spat.
“You know what, Fuck you Ashley, you don’t get it, maybe if you stopped drinking you’d understand things a lot better!” I yelled, grabbing my bag and storming out. I stepped out on the gravel ground and the sun beamed down hard on me.

‘Fuck’ I muttered, that wasn’t right. I heard a loud thud in the bus and I just really wanted to run away but I couldn’t. I swallowed my pride and turned around, I stepped back up those steps and in the bus. I looked at Ashley who was clearly frustrated sitting on the couch and looking over I saw one of the chairs clearly had seen better days.
“What’d the chair ever do to you?” I joked.
“Just go Ariel, like you always have” He spat back at me. I dumped my bags and knelt down in front of him, he cocked his head to the side.
“First off get your fucking mind out of the gutter! And two I’m scared Ash, I’m not sleeping anymore, I don’t feel safe with all these people especially everyone realising I’m pregnant...I need time away...I will miss you Ashley and I want you to come with me more than anything but ...” I trailed off. Ashley fidgeted with his hands, clearly still frustrated.
“your baby girl will be so proud of her dad up there on stage every night with all those fans, I’ll talk to you every day and I promise to send photos each day” I reluctantly agreed. His face lit up looking at me.
“Promise me you’ll send photos?” he asked.
“I mean photos of the baby no dirty photos Mr Purdy!” I laughed. Ashley finally smiled pulling me in to a hug, I leaned over kissing him before I left.
“Yuck!” I heard a whine. Laughing I looked over at Andy standing the doorway.
“And your how old?” I asked.
“Older than you!” he retorted.
“And I’m older than both of you!” Ashley added.
“Yup...that’s why we have to clean all those cob-webs off you every day” Andy laughed. Ashley grabbed Andy in a headlock, joking around.
“Hey boys break it up” I laughed, “Give me a hug before I leave”
They both pulled me in to a massive up, squeezing me as tight as possible.
“Kick ass tonight!” I smiled.
“Don’t we always” Ashley replied.

Before I knew it I was waving goodbye to all of them in the back of the car. CC was trying to chase after me but was laughing too much he couldn’t run properly. I was sad to be leaving and tonight would be a big show but I had too. I looked down at my phone and then I felt the baby move again.
“I know I miss him already too” I whispered rubbing my tummy. I opened a new message and text’ed Ashley.
‘Your little princess told me she misses her daddy’

Instantly I got a reply.

‘I miss her more...and her mummy of course’

I smiled clutching my phone, this was going to be a hard few months. I was going to be staying with Travis for a while, getting to know the feel and vibe of the band. Knowing they were going to start writing a new album I needed to know their angle and vibe from the inside out.

A few hours later I found myself on the couch of where I would be staying for a few months. Travis was awesome, he was like my older brother. Instantly we clicked, loved the same shows, music everything. It was getting pretty late, well with the time difference I knew the concert would be finished. I had sent Ashley a message before giving him an update of how everything was going, although he said I could move in to his house I thought it might be easier to just stay with Travis for a while. Still having not gotten a reply from Ashley; I decided to ring him.

“Hello?” answered a voice, clearly not Ashley’s.
“Andy? What are you doing answering Ashley’s phone?” I quizzed.
“Oh hey Ariel, how are you? How was the travel? Is everything okay?” Andy pounded me with a million questions.
“Everything is fine, where’s Ashley...why hasn’t he...” my voice squeaked at the end.
“Ariel...” Andy started.
“Don’t worry Ariel me Andy...do me a favour can you delete the last message I sent Ashley” I asked.
“Ariel please...” he started.
“Andy I’m fine, you don’t need to worry about me, I’m good here with Travis, Baby is fine” I implored. Which I was, its just wasn’t even a full day with me gone and Ashley is fucking another girl. But what did I expect?
“I got to go” I lied and hung up. I didn’t want to keep talking, Travis had found some really old horror movies we wanted to watch, at least that would keep me occupied. I felt my phone go off and looked at it reluctantly, it was a message from Andy.

‘I love you Ariel, your an incredible sister and will be an awesome mum just not as awesome as I will be as an uncle....oh and you don’t look fat” he added at the end of the text. I knew he had read the message and saw the photo I sent Ashley, I had one of my BVB t-shirts on complaining that they made me look fat now but Little miss princess wanted to support her Daddy. I turned my phone off not wanting to interrupt the movie and separating myself from BVB for a while.

The next day I turned my phone on and had a millions messages from Andy, Jinxx and Sammi asking me if I was okay and why I wasn’t answering. Im fine I replied to all of them just fell asleep I lied. I think as soon as Andy received my text Ashley found out because he rang.
“Hi Ashley” I answered making myself a drink.
“Morning, How are my girls?” he asked.
“I dunno why don’t you check your bunk” I muttered.
“We’re fine” I added louder straight after. Ashley went quiet.
“Well this is a great conversation...I’m gonna go, if you actually want to talk call me but if not then don’t bother acting like you care” I said about to hang up.
“I didn’t mean it Ariel”
“Sure Ash, they just happened to jump in your bunk mysteriously...I don’t know what we are but it’s clearly not working so here it is, do you want me or not? I asked. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t hurt by Ashley straight away with another girl as if I was one of his one night stands but hey guess what I’m Not. I’m Ariel Fucking Biersack! Ashley though didn’t know what he wanted...To be a ladies’ man which he was already pretty established as or to finally settle for one girl. I wasn’t asking for a damn ring I was just asking him to support me and not kiss me one day and kiss someone else the next.

The silenced lingered for what seemed like forever.
“Ariel...” he breathed.
“Thanks Ashley, that’s all I needed” I said and hung up. So we were officially ‘broken up’? I questioned, we were never really together though. Hmmm... all I know is that there are no kissing, touching or anymore sex with Ashley Purdy again. Inside I felt good, a weight had been lifted, Ash could do what ever he wanted. I felt the baby kicked again.
“We’re going to be fine, don’t worry” I smiled rubbing the spot.
“Everything okay?”
I looked up at Travis and smiled.
“Everything is great” Although it wasn’t actually, I was finally happy at least for the moment.