Elastic Heart ~ Hawks x OC x Dabi

The Mall

I wait next to Shoji and Tokoyami for the rest of the class to show as I make small talk with Kirishima. I wonder how we are going to go about this, all of us have unique quirks and tastes in style. It already looks like the girls are going to group up together, I could go with them but I'm not that into appearances I need functionality. Altho the kids in class 1A that have relatively similar quirks to mine are Shoto, Bakugo, and Mezo. Shoto isn't coming and Bakugo isn't going to be any help when it comes to my wings.
Once everyone is here we agree to group up and meet back up at 3.

"Shoji! Umm. Can... can I come with you guys?" I ask nervously.

"Of course, but are you sure you don't want to go with one of the girls?" Mezo asks with one of his tentacles. I hear the girls squeal as they walk away and I shiver.

"Very. Please I'm not good with crowds." I plead. He nods and rests his arm on my shoulder comfortingly as we walk with Tokoyami. The three of us wander around the mall going into various stores, with the combined help of Tokoyamis style and Shoji knowledge I was able to find a good amount of comfortable clothes and much needed supplies. The three of us were crossing a bridge like thing and I lost them in the crowd. Staring to panic I search for them, hopping, praying that I'm not alone. Someone shoves my shoulder as they pass not minding to turn back. I trip on my own feet and fall into a potted plant in a corner breaking the pot with the impact. Everything is so loud, so bright, my vision blurs and all I can see are faint outlines and smudges of colors. I back myself into the corner wrapping my wings around myself for protection.
Suddenly I feel a hand rest on my shoulder and I panic trying to get away.

"Woah it's just me Shoji. We're here." Mezo says in a calm manner. I cling to Mezo wrapping my arms around his neck and burying my face in the crook of his neck. I feel the sway of his body as I assume we start moving, as he wraps an arm around me.

"We should find somewhere less crowded and take a break." I hear Tokoyami say as they walk. This is embarrassing.

"The Mall is being evacuated!" Someone says as they pass and a slightly panic ensues our surroundings. My heart is racing and feels like it's being squeezed all at once. It's not the noise that bothers me no, it's all the emotions of the people passing. Everyone has there own story there emotions are overwhelming, I have never had to deal with this. It's so foreign to me that I am lost in a sea of panic. Tokoyami and Shoji find the group and they find a place to wait out in front of the mall. I begin to calm down just as the police starts to question our group but there many questions and the large amount of stress put on my and the ground makes me literally start to hyperventilate and then black out.

When I woke I was in the hospital, the doctor told me that I had a panic attack. It was very unlike me, although it was a very stressful situation for me.
When I was released from the hospital I called Shouta, the phone rang a couple of times before it finally clicked and I heard a voice on the other line.

"Hey Shouta... I know it's late, but I just got out of the hospital, and I really need a ride..." I say with tear filled eyes and sniffle.

"I'm headed your way, stay put for now." He tells me and we end the call. I sit down on a bench outside the hospital. Midoriya was in danger, Shigaraki could have killed Izuku and I was powerless to stop it, and the worse part was I wasn't even aware of it until it was all said and done.
I stair at the ground with my head in my hands as a car pulls up. I hear footsteps walk towards me and a hand is rested on my shoulder, that alone sent me over the edge and I began to sob.

"It's all my fault." Is all I can get out before a pare of arms wraps around me and I'm engulfed in the familiar warmth of Mic's arms.

"There was nothing you could have done. It's not your fault." I hear Aizawa say softly.

"How am I supposed to protect them? There my family, you guys are my family. Your all I have, and I can't protect it." I get out before my body is wrenched into another sob. "I'm supposed to be strong." I let out as I break down. I feel Mic pick me up and we get into a car. The two of them take me home and we all silently sit on my living room floor for what feels like hours. I know that it isn't until now that they finally realize how little I live with, how much I just barely scrape by. I haven't had the time to do anything for myself other than sleep or eat. Keeping those kids safe is everything to me, at first it was just about my freedom, but now it is much more than that. The group of people around me are everything to me but they see the world in a light that I will never be able to obtain. 

I watch as Shouta sets a large amount of bags in front of me. I look up at him confused and then back down to the bags.

"Shoji left me in charge of getting these to you." Is all he says before he sits down next to me leaning against the wall, with Mic sitting in front of us. I nod and open the bags.

"It's stuff for the training camp." I say stifling an oncoming sob as I pull everything out and fold it neatly and place them back into the bags.
"Do I even. Do I still get to go?" I plead with him clutching the fabric of my jeans at the knees, and stair at the ground not wanting to see his response. Fearing that I will no longer get to go.

"It would be unfair to not let you go. Why would we stop you from going?" Shouta asks concerned.

"Because I messed up. And when I mess up I lose things. I lose what little freedoms I have. If I mess up I'm weak and need more training. If anything happens to those kids I'll be shoved back into cage until they see fit. That's how my life works." I say with my head in my hands once again.

"Who's they?" Is all Mic asks.

"I have already said to much. I don't want to put you in danger." I say as I stand up and walk to the kitchen. "Thank you for bringing me home. I would offer you to stay but all I have is the bed." I tell them softly. They nod and say there goodbyes before they leave and I'm all alone once again.

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