Love letters He won't see

Red River

I need you to just listen and hear me out right now.
I miss you
So much
I've never loved anyone like I love you.
Everything we've been through
How does one just forget about all of that?
I loved you in your darkest time. I was there for you
What did I do
Where did I go wrong
I don't know
Through all the pain and suffering I love you
And
I always will
Don't forget me, please
I need you
I wish you knew how I felt, maybe it would change
But I can't tell you I just simply can't.
If only you knew...
I have ruined myself just for you
A red river down my neck, for you.
Suddenly I'm a Pegasus, high in the sky.
Trying to forget you.
Then I lose my wings and crash
And cry
Tears all for you.
I wish I knew what to say
I feel myself breaking without you
I see you and suddenly
I can't move
Breath
Speak
Just
Feel myself crush under the pressure
Of you
Being there
Seeing me
That's if you even remember me
Before school
Everyday
I think
Will he like this outfit...
Would he approve
What does he want me to look like
Searching for a way to be exactly what you want
What girl does he want
I will change anything about me for you
I'm scared of
You
And your
Friends
What you guys would do to me
But deep down
I know
You wouldn't let anything happen to me
Or at least I hope
You taught me how to love
But only you
Only how to love you
I love no other
You're my lover boy
Forever
Only you
I showed you everything
I told you everything
The pictures and videos
So
So
So
Happy
And in love
What happened to us, what did you do to me?
I'm ruined
And only you can fix it
But I know you don't want to
And that's ok
Because I love you
And I'd let you do this to me all over again
Soon
The red river down my neck will run dry.
For you. <3