𝑇𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑏𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟. 𝗛𝗮𝗻𝗮𝗸𝗼 𝘅 𝗳𝗲𝗺!𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱𝗲𝗿

✧~ It's normal, right? ~✧

Y/N was finishing to stylise her [h/c] hair as the sun was lighting up her room. She really liked the fact that every morning she could see the sunrise, it was breath-taking.
She looked at her mirror, with a determined look on her face. She had an objective in her mind: to ignore her mother.

~ flashback (warning: sensitive topics ahead!) ~

Your POV:

"Hey mom." I said.
As I arrived back home, I saw my mother do some of her usual activities around the house. To be frank, I wasn't really tired. I spent almost all day in the bathroom, to think about everything that happens to me. And define whether if I deserve it or not.
It's pretty much my routine now, I often don't go to classes nor listen to them; It's always those students who throw me balls of paper with insults on it.
Even if it sounds weird... the bathroom is probably the most quiet place in this school. I like to sit in the window sill and just look outside while I... do nothing.

"hello Y/N, how was school?" mom answered to me without making eye contact and this is my sign that.. she seems like she's in a bad mood.
But it's also strange how she actually asked me how was school, she never does that...

"Pretty good, thank you. Now if you don't mind I wil-"

" Why did your teacher call me to tell me that you're skipping class, WHAT DID YOU DO THIS TIME?!"

She found out. Fuck.

"STOP YELLING FOR FUCKS SAKE! I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING!" I replied with anger. I was getting pretty much infuriated as my mom was, and I didn't really care if she would hit me or insult me cause... It's normal, right? I got used to it, plus, hitting someone will make them learn their mistakes, right..?

"YOUNG LADY, DON'T RAISE YOUR VOICE TO ME! I'M THE ONLY ONE ALLOWED TO TALK TO YOU LIKE THIS! NOW EXPLAIN YOURSELF OR YOU WILL SUFFER THE CONSEQUENCES!"

Huh.

She's the only one allowed to raise her voice to me? hell no. She's my mother and I'm her daughter, she owns me respect as much as I owe her. I'm aware that I "insulted her", but she does things to me that are way more extreme than insult someone, and I'm getting tired of that.

"I don't know, my teacher probably invented some bullshit right there. Now will you let me go?" I said, clearly annoyed by her attitude.

"WHAT LANGUAGE IS THIS?!"

"THE LANGUAGE IS ALWAYS USE. NOW IF YOU EXCUSE ME I'LL GO TO-" I turned around to go up the stairs but...

I heard footsteps behind me.

Here we go again.

I heard someone grab my ear and say in a low tone of voice:
"u own me respect, Is that clear?! If u cuss one more time I'll throw you a bottle in your head and kick you out of the house. Now you don't want that right? so change your attitude towards me."

her grip on my ear tightened by every word she said, and I was at the verge of crying.
She then released me and let me go to my room, but I know for sure it would've not ended like that.

I entered my room, closed the door and laid on my bed. I started crying into my pillow, out of despair.
How many times do I have to.. endure this...

~ Timeskip ~

*sigh*

"These math problems are such a pain in the ass..."
I couldn't focus.
I just wanted to lay on my bed and cry, cry and cry.
I'm so exhausted.

Suddenly, I heard footsteps getting closer and closer to my room.
My mom opened the door with violence. I was so scared she would do something to me.

She entered my room and grabbed some of her stuff I stole from her room. She grabbed my uniform and threw it at me, hitting my face.

"ugly bitch."

I closed the door with all the anger I had and cried.
All I could do is cry all the time.

I always ask myself what did I actually do to deserve this kind of treatment, I never did something bad to her, right? She always says that she does this to educate me, but... is it really for that?

Maybe i'm just a burden to her.. or maybe I'm simply... someone she did not want to have in her life? or maybe—

"I hope that tomorrow u will not skip classes and stay focus, If not, you know what will be the consequences." mom said from the other side of the door.

"y-yes m-ma'am" I said, sobbing.
After she got away, I couldn't do it anymore that I stayed in bed the whole time, I didn't eat dinner nor finish my homework. I was only thinking about what happened today.

~ end of flashback ~

I exited my room, walked down the hallways and got to the stairs that lead to the living room, I needed to get down there to get my lunchbox, otherwise I'll die of hunger at lunch time.

In the kitchen there was mom, preparing her breakfast. I saw her and mumbled: "shit, how am I supposed to ignore her now."

At the first step I was already trembling. It would happen every time I fought with mom. I kinda gave up at this point so I got downstairs like it was nothing, but deep down I was really anxious.

"I'm going." I said and leaved,
hoping I'll never return.

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damn, this was really deep :,)
finally first chapter! I'm so excited on how the story is gonna turn out hehe
see y'all next chapter!

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