the world around me
is crumbling
and i'm too exhausted
to care
this life
revolveed around
validation from those
who lurk nearby
motivation doesn't exist,
the grades are dropping,
yet i can't bring myself
to fix it
sitting idly
and wasting away
takes up all the time
all the energy i can muster
the b's and c's on the report cards
the plummeting grade point average
and the nagging from my guardians
don't phase me
the constant "missing" marks
showing up on my reports
and the 0's that come with it
don't scare me
i've pushed and i've pushed
but i can't keep pushing
the fight to come out on top
has shown the weakness hiding inside
the lack of ethics
the lack of will to care
the urge to wither away
they don't bother me anymore
i'm in too deep
to resurface
and i've convinced myself
to stop caring
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Pleasure or Pain? (Poetry)
PoetryI call this my book of chaos; my sanctuary. When the turmoil inside of me resurfaces, when I've surpassed my tipping point, putting my jumbled thoughts and conflictions into words gives back the control I initially lost.
