Memory Lane {BangChan}

Kind Eyes

"Hey Chan!" Y/n walked into the studio.
Chan jumped a little bit since he wasn't expecting to see her.
"Hey Y/n! What are you doing here? I thought you left?" He said confused.
"Oh... well, I thought I'd just talk to you! If that's okay with you..."
"Of course, Y/n. Talking to you is a delight." He softly smiled. He then continued, "What's on your mind?"
"Well, I was wondering actually... what's on your mind?"
"Hm?" He was kind of confused.
"Yeah, how are you doing?" Y/n said softly.
"That's kind of random, Y/n." He said. He then continued, "but, I am doing fine... really."
"I am glad you are fine. It's just, I wanted to just check in on you. You seemed a little out of it today. You're sure everything is alright?"
He decided to just be honest with her, "Well, there is something on my mind... I guess."
"What is it? You can always talk to me." She said, whilst holding his arm gently.

He felt his stomach get butterflies when she touched him. He began to blush but then snapped himself back into reality. He then had an idea, Oh my goodness, this is what she does to me. I can't even control my emotions. Could this be the time I tell her how I truly feel? Maybe...

"Well..." He hesitated.
"You don't have to talk about it if you don't want to." Y/n reassured.
"No, it's fine. I want to talk to you."
Y/n smiled after hearing that, "So, what's up?"
"I- um, have been having a hard time... I guess."
"What do you mean?"
"Just... with everything. I'm just tired, you know? I just wish I could take a break."

Yeah... I don't think I'm ready to admit my feelings towards Y/n yet. Everything I'm telling Y/n is true though. I also want to know how she feels about Minho. Chan thought.

"I understand. You work very hard, Chan. What exactly do you want to take a break from?"
He then faced her, "I just want a break from putting myself last, pretty much." He then paused and said, "Never mind, it's not important." He started to regret opening up.
"Chan, it's okay. You don't need to talk to me if you don't want to but I think it will make you feel better if you talk to somebody about your feelings."

She's right. Chan thought.

"Okay... it's just, I care for people too much to the point I put everyone else first and help everyone out with their problems and not myself anymore. It just feels lonely, you know?"
"Yeah, I understand."
"Really?"
"Yeah. This doesn't have much to do with what you are talking about but I've been in horrible relationships where I'd put them first and they wouldn't do the same for me. It did feel lonely but, once you learn how to put yourself first, you feel a weight has been lifted off of your shoulders. It's not selfish to put yourself first and I think everyone would understand. You work really hard, Chan." She then continues while gently placing her hand on his arm again, "You don't have to be alone in this. You can talk to me. I won't lie, I'm not the best at giving advice but I'm always here. Just know that."
"Thank you, Y/n. You're amazing."
"Thank you but, that's all you, really." She said genuinely.
He then just looked at her with the purest smile on his face. His smile grew, knowing that he's not alone anymore.

He has such kind eyes. Y/n thought. She could just look at them all day.

"So, you're auditioning still, right?" Chan asked, awkwardly trying to create a new conversation so she can stay longer.
"Chan, you guys made a whole surprise for me because I was auditioning, don't you remember?" She laughed.
He then put his hand on his face,feeling embarrassed, "Sorry, I do remember. I just-"
Y/n chuckled, "You're cute."
He blushed.

Oh my gosh, did I just say that out loud? Y/n thought.

"Anyways, do you need any help? Auditions take place in a few weeks."
"Well... yeah, but I don't want to overwhelm you. You help everyone else and I don't-"
"Y/n, it's okay. I want to help you out of anybody else."
"No... it's okay, really. I'll ask one of the members."