Kamukoma one-shots + headcanons

You'll always be alone..

Kokichi angst lol
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"I'll always be alone.."

"No one wants me.."

"I'm so lonely.."

Kokichi laid on his side as he felt sunlight shine on his back from the window in his room, he sat up before stretching his arms and standing up to go into his bathroom. He had a short shower before changing into a large shirt and large black pants, he rubbed his face and eyes with annoyance as he stepped out of his living area. He began walking to the dining hall and right before entering he took a deep breath as he pushed the door open, everything fell silent as he took a step in. He kept his gaze down and walked as fast as he could into the kitchen, he opened the fridge and pulled a can of soda out. He looked around as he left the kitchen and walked out of the dining hall, he sighed heavily as he walked around while drinking his soda until he stopped.

'I'm a monster..'

'Everyone hates me..'

'What am I doing?'

'Why am I alive..?''

The tears started pouring down his face as he couldn't stop his thoughts, he dropped his soda as he rubbed his eyes and face. He wasn't just sad.. he was angry of his existence, he didn't deserve to be alive..

'I feel like shit..'

He fell back and realised he wasn't in his room, he gasped as he stood up fast to start running to try and get back to his room. He wasn't fast enough though as he saw everyone exist the dining hall approaching him, "Kokichi?" He ignored them and ran out the door, he fell as he ran but kept pushing himself to get away from them all until he found a building to hide behind. He slid down the wall and covered his mouth as he sobbed softly, this was so humiliating for him.. he wanted to curl up and die, he was barely human.. he didn't feel human anymore.. the adrenaline in his veins made him unable to feel the agonising pain of his twisted ankle. He began pulling on his hair as he laid down while shaking violently with short and painful gasps escaping him.. he knew they could probably hear him, as the adrenaline left his body leaving pain coursing through his body, he sat up slowly as he couldn't help but let out a small noise leave his mouth.

"Fuck.." he mumbled as he tried standing but fell back painfully, he could hear everyone yelling out to him but he mostly ignored them until he saw someone in the corner of his eye as he crawled away slowly until he was backed against a wall. He began shaking as he covered his face, he was ashamed that anyone saw him like that.. because it showed how weak he truly was inside.. "Kichi..?" It was Rantaro, Kokichi looked and tried his best to stand up but only fell into Rantaro's arms. "Taro.." he mumbled softly into Rantaro's shirt as he began crying again too his big brother, Rantaro wrapped his arms around the other while trying to comfort him.. he didn't know what to do.. he hadn't seen Kokichi so hurt before.. but he knew that he couldn't watch his little brother be scared.

He slowly picked Kokichi in a bridal style type hold so that no pressure went onto his bad foot, Kokichi felt so humiliated that he hid his face into Rantaro's shirt to cover himself from everyone else.. he was still shaking and his breathing was uneven. He felt Rantaro start walking and he heard everyone talking but he didn't know what they were saying nor did he care, he uncovered his face from Rantaro and he was to tired to put any type of act on for them so they finally saw the real Kokichi for who he was..

A scared child with nothing left..

His eyes looked dead as he stared into all of their souls, it felt as though he could see their deepest and darkest fears with those eyes. he had no real expression on his face.. it was just a blank stare. He had gestured to Rantaro, who turned away and they started walking to Kokichi's room, he didn't look like Kokichi anymore..