𝙇𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙏𝙤 𝙇𝙞𝙫𝙚 𝙒𝙞𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙔𝙤𝙪

Saying Goodbye To You...

"...suki...thing....kats....Katsuki!"

I jolted my head up at the call of my name, realizing where I was, my eyes went dull again.

My husbands funeral...filled with his family, my family, friends, fans, me his husband, and...our kids, Shohei and Himari.

Shohei our 8 year old son, knew what was going on, he was aware that his father was deceased. Our 5 year old daughter Himari, on the other hand didn't really understand. I saw it in her face, her eyes just waiting for him to wake up and jump out of the casket so we can go home. Not that I'd ever admit it out loud but secretly I was hoping that too. That he'd wake up—or maybe I could wake up. From this horrible nightmare that I so desperately wanted to escape.

"Hm?" I silently hummed in acknowledgment to whomever was calling my name.

"Would you like to say something?" Kahana, Eijirou's mom, sadly smiles at me with tears threatening to spill from her eyes. Who could blame her, her son, her only child had just died and at such a young age too.

If I'm being honest I didn't wanna say shit. I wanted everyone to leave me and my children alone. I wanted everyone to stop asking me questions. Telling me if I need anything to come to them, they don't mean it. I just wanted to cry over my husband without anyone watching. I just wanted to comfort my children, I just wanted you. Regardless of my feelings though, this will be the last time I see him, even if he isn't exactly himself or breathing. I have to say something, I'm his husband plus wherever he is, I'm pretty sure he's waiting for me to speak. I haven't exactly said anything verbal to anyone but my kids in the past 2 weeks.

I nodded my head and stood up, walking as slow as possible to the podium which held a red microphone.

Kahana gave me a sad smile before patting me on my back and walking back to her seat.

I took a second to look around the room and all I saw were looks of pity. Normally that would piss me off but at this moment, I can't blame them. Hell I even pity myself, I'm only 31 and I'm burying my husband. Who wouldn't feel sorry for me.

I took a couple shaky breaths before I brought my lips to the microphone.

"Ummm, this isn't exactly the place I wanna be at right now, I don't think any of us really wanna be here but ummm. Here we are so we have to make the best out of it." I took another breather as I really didn't wanna have a breakdown in front of all these people.

"Me and Eijirou met in highschool, UA to be exact. To this day I'm still not even sure how we even became friends. I was the class delinquent with a goal of being number one and nothing else while he was the classes support and shoulder to lean on. He always saw the good in people even if it was very, VERY, hard to find like me." The crowd shared a few chuckles.

"I'm still not sure nor will I ever be sure of how Eijirou fell in love with me. I wasn't exactly the most warm and welcoming before we began our relationship, but what I can tell you is how I fell in love with him. Eijirou has always been strong, mentally and physically. Everytime I was gonna through something even if it was something small and I was just being a brat, he still comforted me. He never told me I was being dramatic or I was overreacting, he just always listened to me whether it was me complaining about some dumb Burger King employee or if it was me crying over a fight with my parents. He just always listened and comforted me in more ways than I could ever do for him. When we were 19 he told me he wanted to marry me, we were on a hiking trail  when he suddenly grabbed by my arm and told me that he was gonna marry me. I thought he was joking at first or thought that maybe he was talking about in the future, but he looked me dead in the face and pulled out this beautiful diamond ring with our initials in it and well, we got married that same day at this random court house that was right next to a Poe Chang's, which we ate at after we got married and called it our honey moon." I silently laughed to myself thinking on how we stupid we were.

"Everyone told us that we were too young and that we weren't in love and it was only a temporary feeling, hell even our parents did, but no matter what anyone told me I was on cloud 9 and nothing could bring me off of it. I wanted him to be my husband forever and well I can only assume that he felt the same because we've been married for 12 years...when we were 24, Eijirou told me he wanted kids, so we went to a quirk doctor and put our genes together and made 2 beautiful babies named Shohei and Himari who Eijirou loved with all his heart." I took a second to inhale and look at my children who were smiling at me while being snuggled up to my mother tightly.

"Eijirou Kirishima, lived a short life, he only lived to see 30, but while he was alive he was loved, by Japan, by his parents, by his friends, by his kids and by me. Eijirou loved being a hero, he dreamed of being one since he was a child and when he became one it was more than he ever wanted. Eijirou was one of the only true heros, who saved people just because he wanted to help people. Not for the money, not for the fame and not for the glory, but because he simply liked seeing people live, so much that he gave his life for it. He wasn't even on patrol, but he still went out to the situation to help out. He knew the villian was more powerful than him, but he still didn't back down from the fight and he ended up taking down the villian and saving 14 bystanders, but everything must cost something and unfortunately it cost Eijirou his life. He lived and died a hero, which is a way I'm sure that he'd love to go out as. Umm, thank you all for coming to my husbands funeral." I quickly ended my speech as I got applause from the audience. I quickly walked back to my seat and embraced my daughter and son.

For 8 years, me and Eijirou have been parents, and it was then it hit me. I was gonna have to do this all alone, I'm a single parent now. Three weeks ago I was cuddled up on the couch watching an anime with my husband and kids and now I'm at my husbands funeral? I couldn't believe it and I couldn't do anything about it but cry and cling on to my children.

How the hell was I gonna do this.....

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"Holding on too tight, Head up in the clouds—Heaven only knows where you are now..."

Authors Note:
Hey! Thank you for choosing to read my story "Learning to live without you". This is a very emotional story and I'm so glad you picked it! This will not be a long story I must say though. The most I'll probably go with this story is 15 chapters as I'm still working on my long book "60 days to fall in love" if you like this story you'll definitely like that story. Much love and kisses~ Cloudy☁️💕 Also Shout out to Pestkazkonia for inspiring this book! Check out their story "27 and counting"